God's the Love. ♥

Hello, 2009! :D

2009-01-03T23:37:00.002+08:00

I have completed doing up my 2009 resolution.
Hope it would really help me in my studies.
Especially, i'm taking O level this year!

Man...attended school on Friday.
Just felt so tired.
I shouldn't have went to bed so late!
& it took me a while to manage to fall a sleep as well.
First time doing SL duty, thought it was easy :p
Well, it was not easy & not difficult, just around in the middle.
It was confusing as the arrangement in the hall changed.

Today was CCA Orientation.
I don't wanna talk about it.

I gotta train myself to sleep early & stop online-ing @ night.
Being tired is hard to concentrate on tasks.
I was so sleepy that I mistook Staffroom as the "office" :s

I need organisation.
A good one.
I need that skill.
That precious skill...
It WILL lead me to a higher level.

Tired & sick.
Good night.

Bye, 2008

2009-01-01T11:03:00.002+08:00

This WHOLE 2008!
It's all over.
The best part of that year was after the 1st Semester.
1st Semester was HELL.
HELL alright.
After OBS, I realised some people could really be scary.
But whatever, I've to move on with my life.
I can't give up because of them (:

I'm glad that Amanda's there for me.
Thank you a lot, girl! :D
Sorry that I can't celebrate Christmas with ya all.
2009 would be a better year for us (:
Work hard to aim for your ideal course in Polytechnic!
♥

Hong Kong trip was GREAT!
I've met a lot of friends there.
I miss them...
During the trip, even though some people treat me like -.-
I don't really care, just feel that their mindset's still stuck in years ago.
Lai Chack Middle School rocks!
Recently, Mr Kevin Ng came to visit Singapore.
Heard from him that Mr Lei's going to retire ):
For all I care, I still have his number so hope he doesn't change his number!
So Veronica & I can visit him or something ^^

After Hong Kong trip, I made a good friend.
Veronica Neo! :D
Even though we weren't in the same group.
Even though we only spent last 2 days during the Hong Kong trip together.
You're a great friend (:
Together, we share a common goal.
TO HEAD TO HONGKONG AFTER O LEVELS
& ST ANDREW JUNIOR COLLEGE!
♥

Hears of Musical 2008, Georgette cast!
Spent 6 days with all of you, enjoyed every single day (:
All the Auditions & Reheasals we've been through.
I do hope for 2009's!
Happy days with you guys, I won't forget :D
Memories followed up on 26th, the video was funny :p
♥ to ALL.

Christmas Day with family, 2 straight days together with celebration on the Eve.
A few straight days of good food (:
24th, my father cooked.
25th, went to Nyonya & Baba restaurant.
26th, went to Old Airport Road for breakfast/lunch.
The bus ride made me feel unwell! ><
♥ to Ng Family!

♥♥♥♥♥
Amanda!
Veronica!
昭湛！
HOM Georgette Cast `08!
English Drama Club!
Family!

:D

God bless us a happy new year! (:

Christmas Eve.

2008-12-24T23:25:00.002+08:00

HAHA.
I'm FINALLY back.
& it's only a few days away from school reopen :s

I only completed half of Chemistry assignment while other assignments are not completed at all -.-
Slow, I feel so slow.
I've Geography summary (Chapter 3, 4, 5) to submit as I failed Pure Geography EOY.
Damn me.
Why must I short of a mark or two?
Can't I just pass & save me time so I can do some questions?
Ahhhhh.

School Holiday was GREAT.
With Hearts of Musical :D
Met a lot of new friends.
& GOOD ones :p
Victoria, Mark, Royston, Shirin, Ryan, Caitlan, Nicole Ng, Joel & lots more ^^

Went out with Veronica quite a number of times.
Still remembered the times when we kept going back to Club Marc.
Was kinda funny.
HAHA.
And, our beloved SUBWAY! xp

Caught Twlight with some members of Geogette cast.
I like the movie ^^

But, holiday started to get bored as I stare at the piles of holiday assignment that I have to face sooner or later.
And, I'm still not doing it.

Tired.
Prepared Turkey, and Christmas Eve's dinner was GREAT! :D
Watched Drama series.
Currently online.
Still feeling full.
I like the Turkey though, very much!
LOVE MY PARENTS COOKING SKILLS!
AND OF COURSE, I LOVE THEM! (:

Anyway,
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!

Her pocket's full of sunshine, but my pocket has a hole! D:

2008-11-16T21:50:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's 50th Anniversary Dinner was alright.
I regretted not buying a ticket for it!
The $20 Buffet venue had been changed to the hall as well means there were air-conditioned!
Awww, should have bought the ticket & enjoyed the show!
About the selling of bears, my selling wasn't very good at first.
Until when I tried selling it in the hall after the Mass ended...
Mr Leow, Mr Lai, 朱老师 & others bought it from me! :D
& I saw someone who looks like someone ^^
He did not sound local too :p

I have been shopping both online & malls. x.x
Plus, spending more than $100 since I'm back from Hong Kong.
& it's less than a month!
Blogshop isn't doing well, so gotta think of ideas to attract customers.
Then, earn $$$!

Tada~ (:

Packed days

2008-11-13T22:27:00.002+08:00

Monday:
Open House
Chemistry Lesson
3 Diligence Class BBQ

Emotional screams inside me & I couldn't focus during Chemistry lesson.
There were so many things happening in just a few days.
Lectures, lectures & lectures.
Parents, teacher & even friends.
I have not even touched my homework even now, 13th November.
Where the heck is my mindset for studying & achieving of good results?!

I learnt how to really BBQ those chicken wings! xD
& those Sotongs they prepared was fabulous!
I never know that the taste could be so great.
Oh well, though we walked 2 hours from Area C in East Coast Park to Area G which is in the Changi area, it's kinda worth it even if the place is kind of quiet & scary.

Tuesday:
Open House
Dental Appointment
British Council's last lesson

Open House was :s I have no idea why it's something that piss me off recently.
It used to be fun & stuff like that, now I'm being bossed around or being excluded out.
I'm getting sick of night lesson when I have to wait for the bus & not every ride is smooth which means I couldn't sleep in that vehicle.
My father wants me to sign up for the full year course next year & it seems that I'm going to suffer next year when there would be a lot of extra last minute lessons.

Wednesday:
SHOPPING with Veronica! :D

I bought a pair of Ali Ba Ba pants & a pair of shoes from Club Marc ^^
I have been spending more than $100 in less than a month!
Just ordered a dress @ Agneselle.LJ :s
LOOK! My pocket has a hole now.
I need a job.

Thursday:
Lunch with Amanda
Borrowing books
Another day @ Holy Innocents' Primary School.

OH! Just remembered.
There would be a H.I.P.S. Musical held @ Raffles Junior College.
I'm so looking forward to it.
The tickets were paid by my father ^^
I just saw some students rehearsing in the hall today.
As I have some time to roam around, I got to view some changes in that school.
The Chinese area was getting more & more interesting than it used to be.
I hear lively voices from those kids even though I was in the garden near the General Office.
I never experience that in H.I.H.S..
All I experience in H.I.H.S. was cold, quiet & dead.

Start of "HOLIDAYS"!

2008-11-08T20:20:00.002+08:00

I woke up @ around 12plus x.x
Watch Hong Kong Drama Series "学警出更" on VCD then online then watch Hong Kong Drama Series "学警出更" on VCD then online then Watch Hong Kong Drama Series "学警出更" on VCD then offline.
Recent posts have been very short!

I have made many friends from Hong Kong such as Carmen, Emil, David, Han Jun, Hong Si, Wan Si and so on.
Most importantly, I learnt many life values and know more about Hong Kong.
ANDAND I know some friends better too (:
Such as Vivienne, Veronica and others.
Even though I realised some that I could not tolerate them (:
Their behaviour is like... !@#$%^&* but I learnt not to care :D

Hong Kong's night scenery rocks!
I love the sight of mountains... but not the polluted air around those tall buildings.
小笼包好好吃哦！
I miss shopping with a lot of $$$ in my pocket ^^
I miss the laughter of HongKong's classmates! :D

15th Birthday :D

2008-11-03T19:54:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ON 2nd November!~
HAHA, 3 straight days of mini celebrations.

1st of November

Met Amanda & Tin Jun to catch High School Musical 3 @ Cineleisure!

CAN'T LOAD PHOTOS! ):

Anyway, Happy Birthday to TinJun on 1st of November too (:

Hong Kong Twinning Trip + My Happy Birthday

2008-11-02T09:58:00.001+08:00

Hong Kong Twinning is LOVE with knowing friends in Hong Kong.

To be continued...

2008-09-28T21:16:00.002+08:00

Looking at the Formula 1...
I can't believe the Government's allowing it.
For the sake of money, or rather the economic...
They are wasting electricity!!!
The amount of lights used is BIG.

Teachers' Day Celebration.

2008-08-29T19:40:00.003+08:00

YAY!
Mr Gerry Er got the Caring Teacher Award.
I'm so happy for him.

& YAY again!
My father bought me a Musical Box.
Thank you, PAPA! :D

& YAY YAY!
I just apply for Passport & collection would be on next week.
HongKong, I'm coming!

& YAY YAY YAY!
Mass Choir would be performing @ St Anne's Church for Youth Mass.
Hope the date would be confirmed soon!

& YAY YAY YAY YAY!
September Holiday is here.
I gotta plan my study schedule already! (:

GOD IS LOVE! :D

Friday!

2008-08-22T23:15:00.003+08:00

I want to change the world.

I didn't complete what I wanted to yesterday.
Ahhh...
Offline kinda late then didn't want to do any work so that I could wake up earlier today.
Yay!
I woke up earlier today, finally... for this recent weeks (:L

I wasn't really happy with my level of concentration during lessons.
I was the only one who didn't complete my Chinese letter writing.
My Maths... wasted some time on filing & didn't have time to complete what everyone has done.
Pure Geography too... I was organising my Maths worksheets ):
And, i didn't know Mr Ong knows my name.
Ahhh, I was outside 3 Integrity to get A Maths book then he lectured me.
At least, he was not really scolding me! :D

Tomorrow, to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve with Amelia, Cheryl & Sarah :D
& out with Amanda, Tin Jun & Matthew after that.
I must do my Chinese letter writing by today...
NG CHING HUI, stop procrastinating.
I will feel satisfied after completing my assignments.
I have not had that kind of feeling for quite long already D:

Thursday!

2008-08-21T17:41:00.002+08:00

I survived 2 hours of Mathematics!
Hooray!
Now, I gotta proceed to completing my work... before I move on with starting anew with Trigo.
List that what I wanna complete today:
1) A/E exercise books.
2) A/E files.
3) Combined Chemistry worksheet.

Attended the CCAC meeting.
I must try to change...
Points that I should take note:
1) Stop eating in class.
2) Stop smsing in class.
3) Stop smsing when I shouldn't.
4) Complete my homework.
5) Buck up my studies!

I've God.
Hee.

~

2008-08-17T11:31:00.003+08:00

It's been real long since I last posted.
Some people asked me to give them permission.
Alright, only 2!
I didn't open it is because I havent posted for very long.
And, my latest posts were very negative.
The sight of it made me feel uncomfortable too.
So yeah...

Life's been a bore.
Geography project's on at Bukit Timah Nature Reserve.
Damn.

!@#$%^&*.

2008-08-06T21:04:00.000+08:00

ARGH.
RESULTS DROPPING.
MY ATTITUDE TOTALLY SUCKS.

Untitled.

2008-08-02T10:00:00.003+08:00

If I post at this rate, my blog's gonna be dead.
My weeks are packed with rehearsals and props making.
I hardly revise, only have time for last minute brush up right before the test.
Revision at night just doze me off.
I can't afford to force me being awake when I couldn't absorb anything from the book.

Oh well.
I don't understand why he is treating me like that.
Can't I just treat you as a friend?
Delete me in every connection that is visible.
What's up with your attitude?
I don't even understand why I should care about you ignoring me at all.
You're just some fat smart slacker.

Anyway, English Drama Club can do it!
I have trust in all of you.
All of you just put in your heart to it then we can make it.
One for all, all for one.
Silence is an art too.
Can't we together as a Drama Club achieve that?
I know practices are kinda too much when we have to cope with so many upcoming tests but this is a time when we learn to manage our time.

Not only all of you, I'm also learning how to juggle my time with my beloved Drama Club, studies & etc.
For now, I'm also having lesser time with my family.
Come on, we are having a chance to perform during National Day!
A great chance to show this school what we are made up of.
This is also the first time we get to perform for a school event.
WE ARE GOING TO SHOW THEM THAT WE ARE FAR MORE BETTER THAN THEY EXPECTED.
RIGHTRIGHT?
WE WOULD BE GIVEN EQUAL CHANCES AS THE OTHER PERFORMING ARTS CCA TOO!

Earth's suffering from Global warming yet Human are still burning unnecessary stuff, producing a lot of Carbon Dioxide.
Carbon Dioxide traps heat on the Earth.
Are you trying to perish with the rest of the people with heat?
BURN BURN BURN!
Why can't people try saving?

Actually I'm also contributing a part for Global warming.
Look, I'm using electricity to online.
I haven't complete my Chinese letter writing test.
Set a target!!!
I'm going to try completing it today.

Empty street.

Gahh. Hope I can make it for Festival of Praises! :D
God bless.

Science Day!

2008-07-25T21:18:00.002+08:00

I saw some cute guys.
I didn't know real cute guys exist in H.I.H.S.! xD
Missed lessons & tests.
I'm feeling unease now.
I'm going to be very busy during those weeks ahead!

-

2008-07-22T22:56:00.000+08:00

Today was tiring.
Maths lesson was worthless.

Mathematics.

2008-07-21T22:58:00.001+08:00

I don't like my teachers, what to do.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
lol.

I am tired.
I kept online for so long.
Oh, my eyes.

Interest.

2008-07-19T14:02:00.002+08:00

Haven't been posting again.
Aha.
Yesterday's Drama session was fun!
Hahaha, actually every session is fun!
We were like running around most the time.
Fun fun fun!
He preached at some point of time.
I love his preaching.
Especially this part, "Fill up your emptiness."
Fill it with love!
Yeah, I feel empty most of the time.
Something missing.
I just gotta fill it with love :D
He did say other stuff which it's really meaningful but only that sentence left a mark on me.

Theatre matters to me a lot.
It is Life.
Heard it?
Theatre is Life or rather Drama is Life.
Drama is every part of our Life.

Projects projects.
I really dislike those.
I'm just an extra in this class.

Fill your emptiness with love.

Health Check.

2008-07-16T19:08:00.003+08:00

I had health check yesterday @ school.
Ahhh, I shrunk & lost 1.5kg.
Seriously, I wonder if both measuring machine is accurate.

Yeah!
Everyone has X factor in them.
Heh.

Visit http://oh-elegance.blogspot.com/ ! :D

I'm back.

2008-07-13T13:01:00.002+08:00

Take me away.

It's 6 days since I blogged.
Hey people, I will link/relink you.
Sorry for late reply yeah.

I've been busy and blogshopping a lot.
Schoolwork are heavy piled on me.
I need to catch up, gotta prove to people that I can manage.

I'm feeling ache now.
I didn't count when my period started the other time.
It should be 2 months ago :x
And yay! or "yay"!
It came just almost midnight yesterday.
Very heavy & I'm suffering from ache.
I don't wanna go school.
There's PE tomorrow too, D:
I wanna tell Mr Tong to excuse me!

A Mathematics been bothering me.
Not a lot, if I feel very slack.
I've got problems with Chinese Language too.
My standard is dropping a lot.
And China's economic is rising already.
Why must my standard drop at this time!

I got back my Chemistry Quiz, 4/10.
Shocked, I thought I would score 0/10.
My class only had 1 who passed, 5/10.
Most got 0/10.
I'm proud of myself.
Actually, not really.
I thought I knew everything then lent my friend notes.
I didn't intend to study the formulas.
Haha, I feel so dumb.

Oh well.
I had another Quiz after knowing my Chemistry Quiz results.
I think I got around 6.5/10.
Results are bad, to me.
I gotta pull my results to the highest I want to go.
Even though my parents doesn't really appreciate my effort, I know myself :D
Ahh, they prefer George, he's lazy alright!

I have problems continuing my A Maths assignment.
Damn Binomial Theorem.
I have no confidence with Mrs Chang.
This made the reason on why I usually sleep or didn't pay attention if Mrs Wong isn't there.
THIS IS BAD.
I"LL SAY AGAIN, THIS IS BAD!
She's so unsure of myself and all ):

When a student score high marks, she wouldn't really care...
She really focus on the weak ones.
Hmm, I really hope she could balance both.
No one is perfect, you see...
Since when I got A2 for A Maths SA1, I supposed she thought that I'll have no problems after that.
THIS IS SO WRONG.
I don't understand that stupid graph, the lesson she taught during the post examinations period.
Ahh, I responsibility for this too.
I shouldn't not pay attention.
I'm sure there would be some help if I focus on her lessons.

I'm such a bad example.
Damn, I gotta change for the better.

-In confidence
-Sensitive
-Bad temper
-Eating in class (except for sweets, I'm allowed for some lessons!)
-Doubting Life

Really, Life is bothering me a lot.
Maybe this is not the right time for me to blog since I'm having this period thing.
It's ruining my mood somehow.

Every factors and happenings of Life

I question myself

Why is all of this happening

Then I tell myself

Everything happens for a reason

No one has the answer except God

Then I ponder

Humans couldn't let go of their burden to God

Is this why we, humans worry so much

Then I calculate

As pressure accumulates

We, humans could not manage all this

Then I am lost

Silly thoughts on our mind

Committing suicides

Torturing ourselves

It does not worth at all

This is being selfish

Then I search

We, humans have God

Why we could not give ourselves to him fully

Then I found

Oh God

He is Our Creator Our Father Our Light

We feel so free with Him in our hearts

Where burdens and sorrows of us sinners

Vanished and live happily ever after

Then I thank

We, humans are so selfish

Hurting ourselves

Hurting people around us

Hurting God

He is so ever merciful

Forgive our deadly sins

Then I recall

Uncountable sins we done

All is recorded

Piles and piles of it

Have we realised

He is going to clear it

Have we appreciated

Have we even accepted Him

Then I fall

Tears running down on our face

Created by Him

Teardrops of us is like a diamond in His eyes

Don't we not known

We still do doubt Him

This hurts Him

I still wonder a lot in my own thoughts, this irks.

I'm weak.

Uh.

2008-07-07T21:09:00.002+08:00

The knitting was okay.
Saw Jia Jun & chatted with him for around half an hour.
I chosen the spectacles I was eyeing for the other day.

When I reached home, there was some problems.
Nothing made me feel better until when I read Vivienne's blog just now.
I can't believe that I really felt better.
Maybe it's the power of God's words?
The thing is when I read the Chinese bible, it didn't really helped me.
I wonder if it's because I didn't let go of my burden?
Oh well.
Yeah, we are no accident!
God's with us.
Oh Lord, Come into me! :D
And guess what, Rui Jun suddenly said hello to me now.
Isn't this a miracle as she have not been talking to me?
Oh wait, she isn't replying.
Where have she gone to?
She's back.

I'm still wondering if there's anything wrong going to a Christian Church.

:D D:

2008-07-07T08:55:00.002+08:00

The thoughts are gone but scar was left.
At least it's cleared now.
Oh well, today I'm going to Chinatown to accompany Miao Min to knit.
Maybe I would get to learn something as well.
Anyway, I like Chinatown because of the buildings & the food.

Slap me.

2008-07-06T21:09:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling uneasy about it now.
This seems pressurising to her.
I really wonder if my comments or whatever I say would even matter anymore.
I'm going to be just something extra standing next to her.
This might make her feel unimportant. (Is it or is it not?)

Slap me for having thoughts of giving it up.

No one can please everyone.

2008-07-04T18:57:00.002+08:00

:D
Today was okay just that there's a English project coming up.
I hate group projects, some of you should know why. D;
My group includes Fidella, Zhi Lin, Mason & Kienan.
I have never work with them before, I hope it would be a success.
It's a project about Debating, this idea is fun where we must really generate more brain cells!

I'm someone who does not know how to social well, I'm really disappointed with myself.
I hope after taking the responsibility + every values tie, I would change for the better.
Of course, I'm expecting myself to improve better and achieving my goal such as managing my time.
Seriously, being someone who does not have much confidence couldn't really talk to people and make good friends.
Maybe I left bad impressions of myself to others?
Thinking over it and what Vivienne said made me feel that I have a bad point that is depriving me of better life.
I lacked of confidence and seldom really believe in myself but after the Drama Fund Raising and Day Camp, I believe in myself when I work with Vivienne.
Well, I realised only after she mentioned that we have been working with each other for quite a long time like last year!
Athenium Day's coming, English Drama Club's first time to have both the Chairman & Vice Chairman going up together. (:

I had Social Studies test today and I didn't have time to complete as I spend quite a long time to think of starting my answer for Structured Essay question.
For the second time, I'm disappointed with myself because I didn't reach my expectation on how I did my tests like the recent Chemistry test which cost me 10 marks.
10 marks is a lot as it's 10% of the whole thing and 1 mark does make a difference.
I'm feeling sleepy and I think I would sleepy sooner or later.
I have to manage to complete an assignment to achieve a sense of achievement!

Carry a smile on you, Life's too short.

Homeworks are never ending.

2008-07-03T18:24:00.002+08:00

It's been long since I posted about my daily things I have done so that I can just keep track about the days I have been through.
Homeworks are really never ending and I didn't have the chance to pay attentively in class as I was doing homework.
This is my fault as I didn't balance my priority!
I'm disappointed for myself.
Since school started, I'm always tired when I reached home then got distracted by newspapers or other magazines then read it.
After reading it, I felt sleepy then I slept and done nothing.
Otherwise, I reached home late and got distracted by the items that could be read.
I sat on the sofa and got very sleepy then went showering.
After shower, dinner time.
It's either the television programs attract me or I would do my homework in my room.
The questions take my time quite a lot so I usually feel sleepy or it's late already when I completed some questions but did not manage to complete one set of homework.

I shouldn't take others' words so hard when I know what I'm doing.
Guide me the steps I'm taking, Thanks Lord. (:

H.I. Musical.

2008-06-29T11:14:00.003+08:00

I want to be a star.
Holy Innocents' High School 50th Anniversary.

I met up with Lynette @ Serangoon MRT station.
She told me that we weren't supposed to wear sleeveless or slipper.
I was, thank goodness, I didn't wear my dress.
It was a announcement from Mr Anba but I didn't hear that.
Donovan was supposed to be meeting me first but he was late!
Since he was the one who wanted to eat but was late, Lynette & I decided to grab a bit.
We had no idea what to eat after walking around, we shouldn't be so indecisive as time was running out so we just settle for Bakery products, yum yum.
While walking back to the MRT station, we received calls that Vivienne & Donovan arrived!
We realised Donovan was wear a pair of slipper so I was wondering if anyone had pieces of paper so could wrap around his feets!
Samantha & her sister arrived after that, then we went to the Bus Stop where Vivienne's father was.
The trip was quite fast, less than half an hour. :D
There was 6 of us, Donovan was sitting in front and the rest of the girls had a good time squeezing. HAHA.
Before entering the National Library Entrance, we saw Ching Yi inside and waved.
What a great time to see those long time no see graduates of H.I.H.S.!
The first some of us headed was the toilet, and the Library was very very cold too.
I like the air conditioned there, after all the weather has been very warm.
We saw some friends being usher so kinda greeted them and chatted for a very short while.

At the Entrance of the Drama Center, Dominic was bowing to whoever passing him, poor thing.
We decided to head to the ground level so that the people who had not eat their dinner or anything can at least grab some bites. :D
The prices were rather costly and we headed back to the 3rd level.
We lost Vivienne & Lynette then it was because they were supposed to be at level 5 because of their ticket arrangement.
I was very thirsty, maybe because of me crapping all the while so I went to buy a bottle of mineral water for $2.
The Entrance of the Theatre was opened then I went in with Amelia & co..

The size was okay, average but I was shocked that there were all type of tapes on the stage itself.
A good production should mind those type of minor factors.
Whatever, the show was good but I find it too short.
I want it to be a longer one, it seems really incomplete.
Edwin's singing was touching, I knew him since Primary School through my brother.
I really didn't know he could sing and act or even dance.
Dorothy's acting was shocking since I know her personally.
I'm very impressed of them, everyone who's part of the Musical.
I bought the $20 tickets which was on the 2nd level, it was kinda noisy.
Some of the audiences there were very inconsiderate, from my back, top right hand corner.
Overall, the show was good but I still doesn't like the noise they made.
Maybe it's because of me being prejudice towards them.
They suck.

The show ended and there was a SL, a friend of my brother's asked me where Kelvin was.
Then, Dominic asked me about the show but I told him that I would told him when school reopens. Lol, :x
I went outside to gather everyone.
I called Ray then realised that I walked pass him but didn't notice at all.
I walked back with Vivienne and Donovan tagged along.
And yeah, took photo with Vivienne & Ray.
Ahhh.
He was odd one out? :/
Should have taken the pictures separately.

I suddenly remembered something, "Hot, Hotter & Hottest Guy!"
Hey, Hottest Guy belongs to Vivienne.
Hot Guy belongs to the school.
And, Hotter Guy belongs to the Sun.
Wooooooooooow, no wonder I felt so warm while reaching home. :/

While we were on the ground floor, we got chased out by the security guard.
We stayed outside for a while and saw Amanda Ler and co..
They were a funny bunch too, quite high.
Amanda's dress, the colour was unique!
I got the white one but it's sheer, gotta do some protection measures. :/
And once again, luckily I didn't wear what I wanted to wear!
We would crash, and uh uh.
I'm really amazed to see 2 colours of the same unique design, black & teal and happy to see it as I only seen white.
We wanted to head to Bugis Junction for the MRT station but ended up in MacDonald's'.
It was a 2 levels one, I like the stair case, haha.
I ate a Strawberry sundae, had a hard time eating it as Donovan was sitting in front of me, with Vivienne next to him.
They were taking photo of me while I was eating.
Hanging out with them was fun as I get to be free like no strings was tying me.
All of you is ♥.

Raffles City was near so we headed there to board the City Hall's station's MRT.
Once again, we saw Sophia and some of the boys who I don't really know them personally.
I lead Samantha & her sister to walk the stairs, so sorry about that!
I think we were quite fast as the others had the help of escalator. ^^
We reached Dhoby Ghaut and saw quite a number of schoolmates.
Destined to be, I guessed.

God is ♥. (:

It's out to me finally.

2008-06-27T18:24:00.002+08:00

First week of school reopens. after June Holidays.
Certainly tiring and glad that weekend's here.
Had Drama practice today, there was a relief instructor.

I am tired now.
H.I. Musical's tomorrow.
This is also the first time H.I.H.S. organising this big event.
I am not going to miss it.
Therefore, I would not be going to my cousin's 21st birthday. :/

Schooling ain't going that well for me.
I'm still the one out.
Not the mood to post.
I miss Drama Club `06.
The times we spent.
The days we were together.

29th Day.

2008-06-21T13:47:00.003+08:00

29th day of June Holidays `08 already.
Ahaha, gotta be dead with incomplete homework.
Oh well, yesterday went British Council (finally!) with my father and George.
Scored 68/80 for the placement test.
Short of 2 marks to enter that Proficiency course!
I think I won't want to think of retaking the test already.
I may not cope in that course. :/
Ate Curry Chicken Baked Rice @ Century Square.
Never ate that before but it tasted okay.
There's cheese on top of the Curry.
Headed to Bugis after that as my father wanted to purchase some goods.
We were late already since he have to rush back to the stall to close it and I got to rush to Hougang Mall for a meeting.
Time is precious but the bus still took quite some time to arrive.
There was only some seats available so I sat quite far from them.
I was actually feeling fine until I sat near them which is in the middle of the top of the bus since it's a double Decker bus.
There was some kind of vibration with sound.
I hate that feeling which made me feel really uncomfortable, dizzy + headache.

Met Vivienne & Diyva @Foodcourt.
Had fun discussion with them.
Stay tune to assembly during Tuesday & Thursday! :D

Gotta prepare to bring my brother to tuition, I think I won't make it though.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Ee Chun!

2008-06-20T00:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

Tan Ee Chun. :D

17th Birthday!

One year older.

20th June 1991.

27th Day.

2008-06-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

I slacked the whole yesterday, didn't touch any assignments again.
And school's starting in 3 days' time, this sucks.
I want June Holidays to be longer without any addition of assignments.

I met Miao Min at Hougang MRT station and Jocelyn after that near the Entrance of the station. We went to school for collection of Miao Min's report book, saw Choir members walking out while we were at the security corner before eating @ Cafe Cartel, I'm a first timer there.
I like the Grilled chicken + rice + mushroom soup + free flow of bread + drink = $9.50.
I think it's quite reasonable for that meal in a so called restaurant without GST & service charge but no GST & service charge is only for that particular Value meals.
Miao Min and I selected the Grilled Chicken set whereas Jocelyn chosen Seafood baked rice.
We wanted to go Popular but only realised when we were at the escalator towards the ground floor.
We bought the materials needed and walked to Jocelyn's house.
I shall not elaborate and we completed the project really fast.
We watch variety shows and ate Instant noodles (we cooked together!).
Most importantly, Miao Min & I tried the OSIMs Massenger.
I find it fun and relaxing especially the iMassenger (not sure about the name though).
My father called when my instant noodles was done, he asked me what was I doing and that he was at Hougang Mall.
He wanted to meet me and asked me why I ate my friend's house.
Haha, he's the kind of don't like to accept offers.
I didn't meet him in the end since he reached home when I called him after I ate finish.
I still didn't attempt any assignments now and I'm having a bad feeling about this.
There's a mini meeting tomorrow @ Hougang Mall.
Hougang Mall always made me think of school and always see schoolmates there.

I didn't want to blog but got this feeling of blogging.
I don't want to get addicted to blogging.
Weird person.
Ahhh.
School's gonna reopen soon.

I need sufficient sleep hours.
I really do.
I must.

It's Midnight now and I'm gonna write another post specially for someone.
HAHA.
He should be honoured.

25th Day.

2008-06-17T22:00:00.005+08:00

WOW, it's the 25th day of June Holiday already.
It's so fast.
Uh uh.
Haven't been blogging for just yesterday?
Hahaha.
Yesterday went to watch The Incredible Hulk with Miao Min & her boyfriend @ Cathay Cineplex.
It wasn't that bad after all!
The show really shocked me a lot of times.
And there was kind of comedy too but it's like, sexual reference? :x
I just don't understand the last part.
Why did the Betty stopped Hulk and why did Ironman appear to meet the General which is Betty's father?
Ahhh.

After that, we walked to City Hall so that I can check out the wallets.
We checked out quite a number of shops but I still did not manage to find my ideal one. :/
Yeah and I rushed to Boon Keng to meet up with my parents and George for dinner.
So where's Kelvin?
Bet he was playing online games.
Hmmm, he was playing basketball with his friends when I reached home.

Well, something kinda unpleasant happened.
I'm glad that today's okay already! :D
There was a problem with the water pipe at my parents' stall.
Something dropped inside and that costs them $460!
Damn, I can buy a lot of things using that amount or rather a Sony Digital Camera.

I didn't feel like getting out of bed this morning.
When it's 9+, I'm still "Huh, 9+ already yet I'm still so tired."
Before sleeping at an unearthly hour for me, I attempted some Chemistry questions and *yay*, I got my answers.
My eyes was feeling very heavy.
I'm happy enough to complete some questions *yesterday* since I didn't did anything on 2 days already.
That sounds bad to me.

I postponed the time for meeting Cheryl to 11.
Met her at the entrance of Simon Road.
*lalala~*
Ri Mei and Josephine counted the tickets, told us what we should do.
And of course, we asked them some questions to confirm some matters.
Tada, we collected the Donation Cards.

Went to Heartland Mall to get a drink.
I think the amount of drink given @ CupWalker is too much.
I felt like vomitting and felt kinda sick.
Called my father what time he's going out so yeah, continued with other plans.
Yee ha, walked home to get my materials and headed out to meet Fidella.
The weather was still burning me and I persevered!

I'm a happy girl right now.
Because I completed my E Maths Holiday Assignment for Week 4.
None of the questions was left out.
Well, I still left a lot of questions to complete for other assignments!
And, some people did their English Distinction Exercises.
Should I do or not?!

After doing the assignments like around 4+.
I head back home to change clothes since my handphone battery was like dying already.
I'm fickle minded for the clothes part and wanted to wear a skirt because the weather was burning me already.
But half way to the bus stop, I felt a little uncomfortable so went back home to change my bottoms.
Hmmm, the heels was high for me and the skirt was kinda short so I really felt very weird since I have been wearing my flats.

I rushed to Chinatown to meet them.
Unsure of where that place my fatherwas talking about so I went to ask someone from one of the shophouses.
I walked 3/4 almost to the destination, I thought I was lost so I went to somewhere to check if that's the place.
I was wrong so walked back where I was supposed to walk.
Yeah, she was right.
Hahaha, that was a temple.
My mother was thoughtful to buy me a drink and some snacks! :D
The snacks were still warm and it's delicious.
*Yummy*

I saw a newly renovated hawker center.
For a second, I thought "Wow, it definitely looks better."
Another minute, I find that... "Hmmm, I don't think the food is better already compared to last time."
*sigh*
Everything's been renovated.
Lost and Gone.
The feeling is in fact, different.

Kelvin and I went to OG for a while whereas the others went to rest.
I went to check out wallets again and Kelvin called.
He wanted to get an Addidas shirt and asked for my opinion.
And George suddenly called and told us that he's already at 5th level.
That's fast alright, I wondered why didn't I saw my father and him.
In the end, he got a white Addidas shirt which is better than the other blue one.

There was fighter planes flying in the sky. (I'm not sure the name of the planes!) xD
A whole lot, I think.
I kept listening the sound and I saw a few of them.
It's so coool, okay>!
I want a picture of those planes flying. (!!!)
A number of tourists and Singaporeans were holding their different types of camera.
I bet they can't shoot anything since the speed was very fast.
The plane's stunts were like superb!
I guessed those were meant for the tourists since Singapore doesn't have much to show. :/

Well, we went to the newly renovated hawker center to grab a bite.
The food indeed wasn't the same standard compared to the past.
It tasted not that delicious already.
I guessed it's because of the rent that went up high, that's why the vendors didn't use quality ingredients.
I ate Satay Bee Hoon and Mum ate Duck noodles.
The Duck noodles is better than Satay Bee Hoon though.

Definitely a long post.
Excitement only started the last week of Holiday.
That's a great thing for me. :D

Happy Fathers' Day!

2008-06-15T19:47:00.002+08:00

As stated on the title itself, it's Fathers' Day today!
I didn't did anything special yet I kind of made my father disappointed this morning.
He looks fine now, and we ate dinner at home.
My father wanted to buy Pizza Hut through the Delivery system.
Guessed what, that was what my brother requested and asked him to treat. -.-
My Mother, of course, objected.
She is the kind of person who saves and does not spend when not necessary.

Hmmm, my emotions aren't going fine.
I'm feeling weird, you know?
It isn't empty, it isn't happy one nor anger.
Disappointed?
Maybe.

I went Hougang Mall today.
Cheng San Library.
Looked for Jane Austen's book, "Pride and Prejudice" are either on loan or not available there!
The librarians said her books are very old so it kinda stopped printing?
And, some old books were being put in their Warehouse or Reference because it's very limited so they want to preserve it.
*sigh*
Somehow, some borrowers lost her book!
That's very disappointing, imagine some people who were inspired by something or someone to read her books...?

There's the Pasa Malam around the MRT Station.
I went to buy some snacks then I could share with George.
Walking around, deciding what to buy...
Suddenly, I wonder if there would still be this kind of "Night Market" later in life since Humans is relying technology so much, so rapidly.
You could see the rate year after year.

I'm getting involved in Arts more than Science recently.
That was what I realised when I was reflecting, looking at the past and present.
Facts or Feelings?
Ahhh.
I would rather this whole world be more full of feelings not relying on Facts!

A photograph.
That picture taken.
That place taken at.
It wouldn't be the same anymore.
One couldn't take another similar photo anymore.
It wouldn't be perfect as the other one.
Think again.
When one took a photo.
After one taken that photo.
That place.
That position.
That light.
That time.
That living or non-living creature.
One's feeling.
Everything's going to be different.

22th Day.

2008-06-14T21:11:00.002+08:00

I started my Book Review yesterday on "First Impression".
And officially completed today, look at how happy am I to complete one assignment. :D
But there's one BIG problem, I do not think that I did correctly.
Oh well, I still have Chemistry project.
I am just kind of afraid that I could not complete it in just one week with other assignments!

I'm still afraid of school reopening, undone holiday assignments.
Damn, why I am always having friendship problems.
What's the exact problem with me?
I gotta learn how to socialise, D:
I feel nervous easily, perhaps no confidence?
*sigh*

I went to sort of celebrate Father's Day today?
The weird thing is, my father's the one who initiated to eat it out.
I feel kind of disappointed with myself but I think I'm going to do something special, I hope.
Being filial and achieving good results should be the best gift he ever got.
My results and behaviour never seems to impress him.
His expectations are high, it should be good, i guessed.

Maybe having pressure is good.
I just have to learn managing it.
And talking about managing, I need to learn time management too.
It's one of my 2008 Resolution, it's the best year to train it up since O levels are coming next year!
Hmmm, assignments are still driving me crazy.

Feeling empty.

You Are Mostly Virtuous

You are a good person, or at least as good as you can be.

You try to do the right thing, and you have ended up with many virtues.

While you are virtuous, you aren't a saint.

There's definitely a bit of devilishness deep in your heart!

Where You Are Virtuous

You have the virtue of Chastity. You only are intimate with the purest of intentions.

You have the virtue of Justice. You treat other people fairly, even when you don't feel like it.

You have the virtue of Frugality. You spend your money wisely, and you are not wasteful.

Where You Are Not Virtuous

You lack the virtue of Moderation. You are attracted to extremes of all sorts.

You lack the virtue of Temperance. You eat and drink enough to harm yourself.

You lack the virtue of tranquillity. Your life tends to be eventful and dramatic.

Are You Virtuous?

20th Day.

2008-06-12T20:17:00.003+08:00

I missed yesterday's post!
I think I also wasted 1 day.

Yesterday
Woke up at noon.
That's very late and also, lesser time was left to complete my tasks.
I only did a few Mathematics questions and was stuck.
My checklist in my handbook still doesn't seem pleasant.
Plus, I only have 1 week + to complete everything.
I watched Channel 5 last night, I feel that it's much more better than Channel 8 since it's more fresh than the other one.
Freshness is the thing to can capture the audience! ;)
Well, I wasn't feeling good last night.
It was good that George suddenly wake up & told me he wanted to watch television so he told me to accompany him.
Indeed, I felt better since my thoughts didn't fluctuated badly.

You are Ready to Date Again

If you're not out there already, you should be.

Your ex is long gone from your heart, and you are ready for another relationship.

Any guy you meet gets a clean slate - and no emotional baggage.

Congratulations, you've gotten completely over him.

Now, on to a better guy :-)

It's time for you to start dating!

Post your photo and profile on a bunch of personals sites.

Before long, you won't have any more lonely Saturday nights.

Are You Ready for a New Boyfriend?

Today

I completed reading a little book called "Snitch", it's about a boy who had to went through a dog training program instead of taking a anger management course after he fought with a friend.

Hmmm, besides reading, I basically just online and played PSP the whole day.

What a failure of me.

I guessed I gotta try doing some questions later on or even start my Chemistry project.

I MUST!

Damn, I kept procrastinating about homework in my thoughts and I only have 1 week +, I wanna repeat, 1 week + which is very short to complete everything.

1st week of holiday was used for Drama Day Camp Planning.

2nd week of holiday was used for Drama Day Camp & rest because was too tired after the whole thing.

It's the 3rd week now and it's ending.

Aww man.

I gotta start managing my time.

God, I'm not going to be further from You.

I log in to Live journal just now and realised that I typed my profile a year ago which seems kinda native because I thought someone can change me but the truth is you gotta do something to change, you gotta have the will, you gotta try it.
God can help you if you accept Him in your heart, serious.
He answers our calls in any way and he doesn't always answer you in the ways you want Him to, He answers you in the best way that could help you. :D

I am working hard.
Strong words do help.

You Are A Realistic Romantic

It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...

But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.

You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets

You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

18th Day.

2008-06-10T21:59:00.004+08:00

Your Sensitivity Score: 53%

As far as sensitivity goes, you're a lot more in tune than most people.

You can't help but be touched by what's around you - good and bad.

But when things do get really bad around you, you are strong enough not to break down.

Are You Extremely Sensitive?

My cousin went back to his Home Sweet Home today.
Parents cooked Mee Siam & Curry Fish Head for dinner!
And of course, I'm still feeling full now.
What a yummy dinner.
They can cook really well if they don't get too proud of it.
The food consisted of their Sincerity, Love & the list goes on...
As for my maid, the food she cooks is poorer than the food outside!
She could cook fabulous spaghetti last time.
*sigh*
She doesn't treat her work seriously at all.
And dare to even say that her work's boring without her phone, television's not switched on so she went to sleep early.
It's like, what the?

I went to school to collect Chemistry file and went to Cheng San library to borrow books.
Yay, I can start my English Book Review.
Then met up with Elton, George and Kelvin for lunch @ Ichiban Sushi.
The waitress was smiling about George's actions.
After that, they went to arcade whereas I went to NTUC to help my father to buy some ingredients for dinner.

oooh ya.
When I went back to school, the security guard was like, "If I were you, I would go other places, rather than going back to school."
He was like, "crazy." too.
Hmmm, he isn't a good role model at all.
I think I prefer Susie, haha.
She advised me on where I should revise my work and stuff like that when she came to visit H.I.H.S..

argh.
I really prefer Mrs Wong.
H.I. Musical really seems getting not organise already.
Ms Soh's part of it, *dang*.
I hope everything would be alright.
Just couldn't bear to see my school like that, I admit I once despise this school very much.
Well, of course I should contribute instead of complaining so much. : D

I need anger management so that I could get over it quickly.
I need to complete my homework fast so that I wouldn't be stress over it.
I need to focus on my schedule so that I could have time to relax.
I need to go to the beach because that is where I wanted to go during this June Holiday.
I need to stop thinking so much so that I wouldn't be so stress about everything.
I need to be strong so that I could help other people.
If I don't, how do I lend a helping hand in the beginning?
Vivienne's so right.
Why didn't I thought of that in the first place?!

World = Imperfect = Imperfection = Unfair = Complains = !!!
Who doesn't complain?
This is so right, everyone do complains.
Haha, this is crap, I couldn't believe that people dislike a particular person because he/she likes to complain.
Come on, who doesn't complain?

Oh, most importantly, I need to talk to God.
I need to pray.
I gotta stay strong.

17th Day.

2008-06-09T23:16:00.004+08:00

Nothing much today.
I bought a necklace from Forever 21 @ Vivo City today.
And I got a shocked when I saw my hand phone that Debra's calling me.
Haha, what a coincidence that Fionella saw me when Vivo City's considered big.
And I think I need motivation badly.

Your Attitude is Better than 50% of the Population

You have a positive attitude... somtimes. You prefer to see the world through clear glasses, not rose colored ones.

How's Your Attitude?

You're Confident...Sometimes

You can seem confident when the occasion calls for it

But inside you may be experiencing a bit of self doubt

A little more inner confidence could take you far...

And convince others that you're as confident as you try to seem

Are You a Confident Woman?

What's wrong with me?!

16th Day.

2008-06-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

hmm hmm.
I wanted to go to the library so I that I can lend a interesting book and complete my book review but realised that I got to go school to take back my beloved Chemistry file back on Monday which is tomorrow. (:
And then, I can complete my Chemistry Holiday Assignment using the notes from the file.
This calls for a celebration especially when I really could complete my assignments at a faster rate.
I didn't really do much work today which is kinda disappointing since I still have so much work to complete and so little time left.
Today marks the end of half of the holiday and that I should have completed at least half of the Holiday Assignments but I didn't.

I started my Maths assignments, I think I posted before.
ahhh~!
I forgot the concepts of Indices.
The assignments really seems easy but it's a headache to me when I forgot if I could simplify it or not.
Damn those homework, piles and piles of it in front of me.
Stressing me out, like what the heck.
I can't let all this pressure me!
Ain't I small to let such a thing crawl over my head?
*sigh*
I seems like sighing through this holiday.
oh hey!
It's holiday and why am I still not happy?
I should be...
But, what could cheer me up?
what could make me feel happy?

Oh Lord, I don't feel you & I'm the one to be blamed.

15th Day.

2008-06-07T11:29:00.004+08:00

I went shopping with Vivienne yesterday, to Orchard!
Damn GSS.
I don't think there was really a great sale.
Vivo City has more great sale than Orchard, I feel so.
I'm going Vivo City during one of days...!

All those shopping didn't really cure my depression.
I bought stuff but it didn't really satisfy me.
There's tons of homework waiting for me to complete them.
It doesn't seem like a holiday at all.
WHAT A STRESSFUL HOLIDAY! D:

Blog shopping seems better because you don't have to walk.
Hahaha.
The quality of materials you get may not satisfy you.
Hmmm.
Maybe it's because of my high heels, that's why I feel worn out in a while.
I think I'll just focus on one shopping mall and it would be enough.

I'm going to Old Folk's Home to help out the Food Charity Sale.
Oh God, guide us.

I'm back from All Saints' Home!
Well, I didn't really had my dinner at home.
I had a kind of hot dessert (forgot how to spell) there and cocktails with fish balls.
Hmmm, I'm still feeling full now.
It's 11:28p.m. already.
I need to be on a diet.
I'm already like, 60kg?
I took that measurement in the school's gym room so I'm not really sure if it's accurate.
Oh, I'm feeling kinda disgusted about food.

OH YA!
I saw Madam Sen during the Food Charity Sale.
hahaha.
She said that she attended Miss Gan's Chinese Dinner, that's why she was very full and couldn't afford to buy the food.
hmmm.
I don't understand what Chinese Dinner though.
And, Miss Gan's finally married off.
*grins* :X

I really doesn't like June Holidays.
Especially this one.
I think last few June Holidays... I didn't really care about those home works.
Now, I'm pretty afraid that I couldn't complete it.
*sigh*
All this assignments consisted our CA2 points.

Oh Lord, I really need you.

13th Day.

2008-06-05T23:51:00.002+08:00

Hmmm.
I took out my Maths Homework for 2 days yet I didn't touch it.
Guessed this holiday's full of distraction uh.
It seems like a typical day but school days are different.
I think we often get distracted during holidays is because it's a holiday!

Well, I went with George to Vivo City today.
I always ended being frustrated after I went out with him.
There were discounts everywhere but nowhere was really very cheap.
You have got to hunt it.
I want to shop but George was really smart to find ways to prevent me from a proper shopping.
He kept complaining and asked me to bring him to the little water fountain.
He's really funny even though I was embarrassed about the actions he did.

Oh. Homework homework.
Damn that.
I think I would be having it done last minute.
*sigh*
I'm pretty afraid about my attitude towards studies.
I seriously do not want my results to drop.
I'm happy with my MYE results but hope it would be better though.

I'm going to shop with Vivienne tomorrow!
Orchard Road, here I comes!
Yay!
Tau huay and Tuan puffs too!
Shopping spree!

Mariah Carey.
I'm liking her songs such as "Bye Bye", "When you Believe" and "Hero".
I don't really like "Touch My Body", reasons not known.

English Drama Club.
SYF's next year.
Are we gonna maintain Gold?
Let's respond, "Yes, we are going to!"
With us, united. (:

12th Day.

2008-06-04T18:15:00.002+08:00

*sigh*
I still have a lot to reflect.
I still got a lot to learn.
After this camp, then I realised that Camp Chief decides everything.
I know I'm dumb to know it now.
zzz.
I dislike that feeling of not knowing when I was playing that role.
Well, at least I know it and there's still more things to learn!

hmmm.
I thought I could start my homework today.
I looked at the questions then was like, boring.
I couldn't solve it or lazy to try out.
I still am tired, I want some more sleep hours.
But, that would only make me feel slacker.
George was playing PSP, I got interested... and guessed what.
I started playing it, haha!
It equals to, homework done = 0%.
I continued playing just now but felt that it was boring already.

British Council, I'm coming!
Drama Club, I'm so not going to let you fall. ;D
If you guys are gonna raise it up, then I believe it wouldn't fall.

Drama Club Day Camp '08.

2008-06-03T22:40:00.002+08:00

We love you guys.
We are sad because some of you doesn't think before you act.
And, there's some things I hope all of you to know is that, "It does not mean that you're a senior then you have the privilege to bully the juniors."
All of us are humans, we do have feelings.
We, as a club, should also consider each other's feelings. :)

I am not gonna write about what happened. Thank you very much.

9th Day.

2008-06-01T22:24:00.002+08:00

I helped my parents yesterday and my face's ruined too. ):
I think it's too oily, the environment of that place!
haix.
And, it's also because I sweat easily, I think.
I just hope it would be better, quick.
It like, so fast...
My face was better actually.
Now, ruined just because of a day!
hmmm.
At least I done something good like helping my parents. (:

I went to the Nike sale @ Wing Tai with my maid.
My father didn't allow me to buy the sport shoes.
He finds that it's expensive but it's okay, I can understand.
After a while, my maid went to fetch George.
I was searching for t-shirts but there wasn't my size.
Imagine you're finding something that doesn't exits anymore...
That feeling is kinda insane & pointless.

I started my Drama Day Camp 'Grocery' trip 3 after that.
I was exhausted after some time because I went back to some places more than thrice.
Tell you something.
Masks are endangered!
Please save it by producing more.
I can't find any good ones but phew, I have got SPK that sells some cute masks.
Hey, I remember those times, when I was young...
I saw a lot of characters' mask, where has it gone to?

Things sometimes go missing then we realised when we begin to look for it.
It's always like that when I needed to buy a list of materials that I didn't take notice of it before I have to get it.
Lessons learnt so many times yet I just couldn't improve on that or should I buy everything from this world first before it's gone.
Well, I don't have that kind of money.
hahaha.
What's the purpose of having a brain?
Of course, if we can't get the things then we should crack our brains and be creative! :D

I was tired when I was going home.
It's just... I'm having a uncomfortable feeling, even now.
I think it's because I didn't had a good sleep last night.
George went to sleep on my bed and I only have limited space.
I don't think I should blame him too, I haven't had a good sleep for long already.
I mean if you're tired, you wouldn't feel uncomfortable or anything.
Even though I went late to bed this 2 nights, I felt uncomfortable and couldn't sleep in a better position.
*sigh*
Hope tonight would be better.

Thank God for this, that and everything. (:

7th Day.

2008-05-30T20:12:00.002+08:00

I didn't went shopping with Vivienne yesterday.
My father wanted to head to the Indonesia Embassy with George, my maid and I.
I went along so that I could help my maid with the filling of details in the form that is required.
Hmmm, we had to renew her passport.
*wow*
She have been working with us for 5 years + already.
We didn't went in the end because we realised that we had to reach by 12 to register and it was too rush.

We went today instead, it was quite a hassle.
Photocopy of a number of certificates and a recent photo of her.
Didn't prepare those so my father had to pay to photocopy and photo taking.
The price is very costly, it cost $10 for photo taking and $1 for 2 page of printed document. :x
My maid don't really know how to fill in the forms and I got kinda frustrated because the form was in her language.
I read the instructions on the notice board and guided her along.
My father was disappointed with me as he thinks that I should help her fill in.
Well, I couldn't help her with everything because I've no idea about her home address, relatives' birthday and etc.
He asked if he should get the queue no. first but I said no as the instructions stated that we should take the queue no. when she completed the form.
At first, we thought the queue was kinda long and so, he gave me black face.
I was kinda sad but soon after he was better already. : D

Hmmm.
At least I done 5 questions of E Mathematics yesterday and tried my best to do the rubrics for Drama Club Day Camp Activities.
I didn't really did my best out of it, my brain wasn't working efficient last night.
I brought George to Compass Point, he was really irritating after some time.
He requested me to bring him to Best Denki, and guess what.
He opened and closed every door of all types of Microwave ovens.
He touched a lot of appliances there.

hahaha.
Vivienne and I were blog shopping on Wednesday night.
Blog shopping with friends are cool!
We can help each other find the items we want and compare the best price offered or even purchase stuff together.
We started out like, 'blog shopping's tempting'.
After some time, we realised we were blog shopping with each other! xD

I haven't had a good sleep this whole week already!
oh man.
My rings are darker, gotta buy whitening mask. xD
And, I have not even officially complete 1 holiday assignment.
The answers are weird to me or is it too easy?
hahaha.
Yeah, I'm stuck on the question again.
*argh*

Thank God on how He change my negative thoughts into positive thoughts last night.

5th Day.

2008-05-28T19:27:00.003+08:00

I went to school in the early morning, reached there around 0705.
The purpose of going there was for a mission and buying a ticket.
heh heh.
You must have think that I'm crazy to go there so early.
The mission was rather half accomplished because we had some obstacles.
I shouldn't state it as I think it would lead to clues then people would know my mission.
hahaha.
Yeap, Vivienne had a hair cut.
She looks sweet with it.
After a while, Ms Laura Lim came down to the canteen and asked the girls there to head to the MRL and mark the attendance.
She encouraged us to head to the China's trip and even initiated to talk to my mother but I wasn't in Elective Literature, so yeah.
I went out of school and wanted to help Kelvin buy the dessert.
It wasn't ready yet so I just walked to the MRT station.
On the way, I saw Miao Min.
When I was there already then I called my brother and told him that the dessert wasn't ready then he requested for MacDonalds.
George snatched the phone from him and wanted it too.
Oh well, I headed back to buy but saw Miao Min again so I sat down with her to chat.
Jocelyn came and she bought breakfast.
After noideahowlong, I finally buy my brothers' breakfast and I drank some of George's milo.
I almost finished it but it's okay since he shouldn't be drinking too much too.
hahaha.
I decided to head home when it's around 9+.
Hmmm.
I slept for like, 3hours?
George was disturbing me and he didn't know my door wasn't lock at all.
When he realised it wasn't lock at all, he kept disturbing me!
I want my beautiful sleep.
hahaha.
I ate my lunch after I officially woke up.
I have no idea what I was doing after that...
I think I was listening to songs that George played on using the DVD player.
Oh!
I read newspapers, there was a page especially for Graduating student from NTU (If i'm not wrong), they published stories about what some of the student faced and became successful or could graduate from there even though they were from Normal Technical.
See, every thing's possible when you really put the effort on it and perseverse!
It kinda motivated me and I decide to start my Holiday Assignment (It kinda linked somehow).
I thought I wanted to start my Chemistry so I switched on the laptop then I stared at the project sheet for a minute.
I have no idea how I am going to start so I tried to research but I just forget it because there's lot of distractions.
I changed my plan after some time (I was surfing the net), I took out my Maths assignment then start E Mathematics.
I completed 5 very short questions only.
Oh, I forgot why I stopped doing.
hahaha. oh!
It was because of food, I took out some cakes to eat.
Man!
I'm so gonna gain weight again.
Nono, I'm so not gonna let it happen.
I gotta exercise. xD
Today wasn't that much of an event yet this post is really long.
Anyway, I'm going with Vivienne to shop on friday instead :D and gonna go Da Shi Guan @ Orchard with my father, George and maid tomorrow.
I wonder where it is, it sounds so grand to me.
I hope everything turns out well too. God, bless me. :)

You're there, I know.

Drama Camp Trial.

2008-05-27T23:07:00.003+08:00

I'm tired.
I was wet in the afternoon.
Felt that I was going to catch the cold.
Luckily, I didn't even though I was feeling very cold when I reached home.
Overall, the water games were quite okay & kinda fun.
On the day itself, I think it's gonna be fun, (:

I went to my cousin's to bake, yesterday.
Plain Cheesecake, Black bottomed cupcakes, Strawberry Shortcakes, Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Cheesecake Bars & White Chocolate Chip Macadamia Nut Cookie.
I did the mixing mostly, it was kinda tiring if you try lot of recipes in a day.
I brought home Plain Cheesecake, it tasted nice to me.
Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Cheesecake Bars tasted too sweet, it seems like Cedele noxious.

1st day.

2008-05-24T23:57:00.002+08:00

I went down to help my parents at 10+a.m. but decided to head back home because I really was not in the mood to do all those work.
Due to me sleeping late, I slept a lot during the afternoon.
Sleep, awake, sleep, awake and sleep again.
I did do something, I started reading "The boy book" and it's half way already.
Oh, I completed my accounts for Drama Club Fund Raiser and sent to Mrs Krishnah (finally!)
*happy**happy*
But, I still gotta complete tidying up Drama Funds.
Money matters are kinda problematic.
Sometimes, you could see it popping out or missing.
I'm experience money popping out, more often.
That is really weird, I thought money usually goes missing.

Let's see what I should do this week.
Sunday (tomorrow): Start Holiday assignments.
Monday: HeJin's house to bake. (woo~!)
Tuesday: Trial Run.
Wednesday: Going school for a secret mission. xD
Thursday: Shopping with Vivienne.
Friday: (empty)

That's all, I guessed.
*looking forward* to the Trial Run, I guessed it's gonna be fun.
Holiday assignments are kinda stressing me up.
It's like you will never know when you will complete unless you complete it right away.
Okay, that's crap.
June Holidays, only 4 weeks.
Couldn't it be longer...?
*sigh*
Since Mr Lee Kim Tai said this ain't a honeymoon year, so I shall just move on.
I gotta persevere longer, all this studies, homework, results are killing me silently.

I can't wait to bake on Monday!
1) Strawberry shortcake
2) Plain Cheesecake
3) White chocolate chip Macadamia cookies
4) Chocolate chip cookie dough cheesecake bar
5) S'more cookie bar
You drooling? xD

And, Thursday!
I'm not sure where would we be going yet because I have not confirm with her that I'm going.
Haha, we both are half alive from organising 2 events but still jumping with joy. :D
This shopping trip should be our reward.
New apparels, I'm coming~!

Oh, yeah.

I need to exercise.

Running, anyone?

Or other sports.

Perseverance rules.

June Holidays starting... started.

2008-05-23T21:00:00.002+08:00

I somehow do not really look forward this June Holidays now.
There are lots of work to complete & I have not really plan what I would like to do.
I only know that I wanted shopping and work.
Upon seeing how much assignments I have to complete, changed my mind about working.
I really have to self study for A Maths, Modules Function!

I received my results.
Happy or sad?
My father told me I should score 100 marks for both Mathematics. (!!!)
He gave me $50 because of my combined science.
I was holding back my tears, not sure if it's because I'm happy or disappointed.
He seems like he doesn't understand, he feels that I could score 100 marks.
I told him to do the paper himself and walked off, I was afraid that I couldn't hold back my tears anymore.
*tolerate* *tolerate*
I'm really happy about my results as I improved a lot, compared to last year.
Now, I'm afraid my position would fall when EOY.
(I must keep in mind to take one step a time, that's the best positive way)

Results time! I will include the 1st combination mark ( CA1 + SA1 ).
English Language- 59.5, C5
Chinese- 66.3, B3
A Mathematics- 65.9, B3
Mathematics- 63.1, B4
Combined Science ( Chem, Phy )- 71.6, A2
Combined Humanities ( SS, History )- 63.9, B4
Pure Geography- 55.3, C5

Percentage: 63.7
Class position: 7/42
Level position: 100/246
Conduct: Very Good.
Comments: Ching Hui has an enquiring mind and the zest to learn new things. She should continue to work hard and read more books to improve her English.

The surprising thing is that my brother have the same comment as mine.
This is the first in my whole secondary that I achieve this positions.
My efforts were paid off but I still got to work harder to achieve better scores so that I could keep up the positions and would not disappoint my father.
I was like, telling him "Hey PAPA, I've got top 100!".
He said that the results I achieved should be the sake of myself and not for him.
Regarding results, I guessed that's the only sentence which made sense.
Or there's more he said last time?
I didn't find that there's any sense because he's always saying about scoring 100 marks for Mathematics.

I want to do a reflection.
Here it is.

This year, I'm more invloved in school activities. I tried to fight for chances to achieve what I plan to 'SHINE' Drama Club. I want to make it shine. I want to make my dreams happen. The ones I dreamt of achieving is getting nearer. In the past, it seems like I'm wanting to touch the stars. Now, it seems like it's so near that I just have to work hard to reach it. I used to think that I have my limits, and I will never forget what I learnt during OBS, "There is no limit, every thing's possible." It's so happening this year, it's the 1st year that I actually achieve something that I thought I wouldn't. This make me feel more confidence, believing myself that I can do it! Such as studies, I really revised my notes and other materials which is better compared to last year. I doubted myself about achieving top 100 for this Semester but I was wrong, I DID IT! Thanks, God! This week's mornings were always occupied which was why I couldn't make it to the Chapel for Rosary but it's alright as long as I know God's in my heart.
I believe You, I believe miracles do happen, I believe You're the Way, Truth & the Light.
I believe myself too, because You're here! :D

Is this a reflection? o.o

Whatever, I just feel like typing all that.
Secondary 3s would be taking over this year.
I wonder how it would be like.
I'm looking forward to the Drama Club Day Camp yet I'm kinda holding back.
I have gotta learn how to be a good one.

Thanks God for everything. (:

Drama Club Fund Raiser @Sports Carnival was...

2008-05-22T20:52:00.002+08:00

The Fund Raiser was kinda a success.
I doesn't really have the mood to blog...
Well, we had some problems but kinda solved it?
Lollipops were sold out fast like, within an hour.
In the end, we decided to reduce our prices for Ice pops.

Thanks for every one's support though! :D
People such as FengYi, Warren & Claudia helped out.
Drama Club members, HIP HIP HOORAY!
There would be another one, probably some time during this year.
I think we gained knowledge after this, not just about the profits we earned.
I know not all were involved in this Fund Raiser.
For this, we did not manage to plan very well because time is limited and so, we didn't really plan about the time slots.
The next fund raiser, we would be gladly to include everyone and hope all of you would at least, learnt something.

In general, there are values behind this activity.
And, as you know, there would be Drama Club Day Camp, I hope we would enjoy! : D
Happy June Holidays & don't forget your holiday assignments as well.

Drama Club Fund Raiser.

2008-05-21T22:30:00.003+08:00

Hello.

There would be a Drama Club Fund Raiser tomorrow,

Sports Carnival.

@ the Canteen

Please do kindly head there & support us.

We would be selling Lollipops & Ice pops,

Lollipops @ $0.60, 3 for $1.50,

Ice pops @ $0.70.

Thank you. (: & hope you enjoy tomorrow's Sports Carnival.

Finally I know why I have not been feeling well this days. D:

2008-05-20T20:24:00.005+08:00

I'M OFFICIALLY ILL.
My chest was feeling very uncomfortable on the other day.
Having a cold, coughs, throat ain't feeling well & such.
There was Table Tennis today, & I lost.
You know, I could have won. :x
I forgot how to gain points, and this is shit.
It's an excuse because I should have asked before the match.
But, I really forgot!
My nose's running kinda bad.

I didn't pay attention for A Maths, it's really tiring to focus on her lessons.
So, what's the problem here?
I just do not wanna have lessons currently.
It's like, I was looking forward to the fun we were gonna have after MYE!
I thought we would have our free time to do our own stuff.
I thought I could use curriculum time to organise events!

Yeah, I saw ex- Security Guard today, outside Hougang Mall.
I find it's kinda funny because I was like, "Susie~!".
Hey, she replied "Hi."
HAHA!
I didn't really like her when she was in H.I.H.S., I was practically talking bad about her when I saw her such as Mr Guei & her, :x
I returned to school for Table Tennis.
And, I was about to leave the school, I saw her at the Security counter.
I chatted with her for like, 10 minutes or more?
I think she look better with short hair.
When she had long hair, I feel like punching her on her face. (which I would never do)
She agreed with me that Ms Soh doesn't look like Principal, ^^
Ms Soh seems like a normal teacher to her, too.
Our school's getting chaotic, that's what it seems to me.
She told me to study harder & to aim for higher target and more because the standard is increasing and the competition's getting fiercer.
I never thought of chatting with her.

I'm like losing the ability to speak properly.
Hope I would be better tomorrow, for V.I.P., :D

Believe in miracles.

Happy Vesak Day!

2008-05-19T20:53:00.003+08:00

Ms Michael left for her Masters.
I totally forgot about that until I saw Rina's blog.
I took a photo with Ms Michael & Brenda on Thursday.
The photo's with her, have not take it from her yet.
I wonder how I looked like, :x
I will miss her, she was my RE teacher last year.
She may not be going back to H.I.H.S. :(

It's Monday, Vesak Day and I realised that there's a number of things not done.
I'll just leave my A Maths homework since I don't understand everything.
Yeap, yeap, I've gotta complete Drama Camp Planning by tonight.
Wish us all the best. x)
Stupid post examinations, I find it's better if there isn't any lessons during this few weeks.
It's really killing me, I couldn't make myself focus and pay attention during A Maths lessons.
Really, it's my loss for doing that but if I force myself, what could I gain?
Okay, maybe a little bit? Ahhh~!

I think I'm falling ill.
Bet that it must be the cold drinks I have consumed this days.
My chest's feeling uncomfortable & I'm starting to cough already.
That's bad because there's V.I.P. tomorrow!
Andand, there's other things for me to handle with the others so I couldn't afford to fall ill at this point of time.
I'M GONNA BE FINE! FINE! Hope so, D:

Haha, I just realised I have a pair of white heels and I think I have not touched it since this year.
Since my father told me to help him purchase some stuff so I wore it to Hougang Mall.
*happy*
I decided not to buy Pumps already, gotta get Flats.
Yay, babey!

I went to check my another email's inbox and realised a lot of things I had missed out, this includes the voluntary of helping the Salvation Army for Fund raising for Sichuan, China!
Natural Disasters occurring like twice in such a short while already.
Is the world really gonna end soon?

Support.

2008-05-18T15:05:00.003+08:00

SUPPORT,
English Drama Club would be holding a Drama Club Fund Raiser
on Sports Carnival, 22nd of May.
We would be selling
Lollipops, 1 for $0.60, 3 for $1.50. Ice pops for $0.70.Thanks! : D

Yesterday, went with Vivienne to purchase the materials needed for Drama Fund Raiser.
Even though the goods were heavy, I supposed we enjoyed.
Carrying the heavy goods, we decided to settle down to have a chat.
Before purchasing anything, we went to other places before making our final decision.
The sun was sunny and so, it was really warm but we enjoyed the wind when we was walking back to Hougang Central.
Oh, and talking about the Sun, the weather have been warm and it's been a few days without rain, or a week?
We chat until like, 6pm+ and off we go.
We both walk through the MRT underpass but I went to the Hougang Bus Interchange.
It was then when I called my parents, my Mum told me to eat there since my maid ain't cooking.
I was like, "with that bag of things?'
But oh well, I decided to just eat at the coffeeshop @ Interchange.
I simply love contributing for English Drama Club.
I'm satisfied with what I do, too.

Today, my maid was on leave again.
I had to bring my brother for tuition & had to fetch him back.
He misbehaves and does not listen to me.
He don't wanna read before class starts and all.
I sometimes feel frustrated because I can't even control my brother.
What to do? Maybe my mother's kinda biased towards my brother, then that's one of the reason why he's like that?
I would feel uneasy talking about biased matters yet I'm still saying.

Sometimes, I feel that I'm worthless to her compared to money & my brother.
Sometimes, I feel that victims(children) of the natural disasters deserve to live in a better place than the citizens of developed countries.

Been 3 days.

2008-05-16T22:21:00.004+08:00

Wednesday.
We had practices for Sports Carnival Preliminary Rounds but did not manage to practice Captain's Ball and Cheryl was training me, table tennis for a while, it was tough for her.
I was very upset when I received the call from Zhu Mei Lao Shi, I asked her about my Chinese Paper 1.
Chinese composition just passed, 25/50.
I was, shocked.
This time, surprisingly, I did better for Paper 2 compared to the previous tests.
Even though it was not as better than last year, at least I'm gaining my standard.
When I received my Paper 1 on the next day, I realised I lost 3 marks because of the letter writing format.
If not, it would be 19/20!!!
My heart hurts, lol.
I stayed back with Vivienne, but ended up discussing about Drama Club matters.
The time was getting late & HI musical practices ended so we saw Dorothy & decided to check out some things together.
We thought of eating dinner together but 1 could not make it so we just did things we needed to & Home-Sweet-Home.
I reached home around 7+ & I was very tired!

Thursday.
I went home after school to change into my Yellow Falcons House T-shirt as I forgot to bring.
I even run after alighting from the bus towards school to collect the Drama Camp forms from Mrs Krishnah (I didn't tell her that I was at home when I received her sms, :x), I think that was the reason why my stomach kinda hurts in the middle of Preliminary Rounds because I ate bread with ice cream while I was rushing to the bus stop from home. :x
I find that I could do better for Captain's Ball, I didn't manage to capture quite a number of balls (my bad as I lack practices).
I scored only 1 goal, lol. (okay, out of 2 for the 2nd Match)
Well, I should not regret so just move on since it was just a game.
After that, I tried looking for Drama members but only found one.
Hmmm, there was some people who got hurt during the Preliminary Rounds and that's really bad because some may be participating in some other events!
Some hurt their toe, feet, shoulder and etc.

Today.
I had to stay back with some others for V.I.P rehearsal and so, was late for Drama meeting.
When I reached there, they were already preparing to head home.
Okay, Vivienne told me about the details so it was alright.
And, we was trying to confirm everything by today. (:
To cut short, Vivienne, Brenda & I left the school together.

Oh, and I gained weight.
I measured my weight in the Gym room 2 days ago.
It's terrible, 60kg like hello?!?
Forget it, I'll just treat it that it's not working & that it's a warning.
I'm so gonna exercise during the holidays, LOSING WEIGHT'S MY GOAL.
The itching of my mouth for food, worsen, I guessed?
It's just that I kept wanting to drink drinks today.

Almost the whole body, muscles are aching.
That's the result of not exercising regularly & just relying on PE!
I'm kind of looking forward to next week.
It's 0122 already, a Saturday.
I was spending sorting out Drama matters after I open this 'Create post', heh.
So, it took me about 3hours+?

I hope there's someone who would accompany me to the afternoon show.
I was on the verge of tears just now after the sudden of my hot temper.
What's going on... but things are better now! :)

PEACE. PEACE. PEACE. \/

Social Studies!

2008-05-13T21:27:00.003+08:00

Yay, I got back some of my results.
English- 25/50 for Paper 2, 39/60 for Paper 1.
E Mathematics- 36/50 for Paper 1, 53/80 for Paper 2.
A Mathematics- 56/80
Social Studies- 33/60 (I passed! But it seems kinda difficult to achieve A1 for combined humanities already.)
Pure Geography- 26.5/50

I am not sure if I should be happy with my results because is there any improvement?
Maybe exception of A Mathematics.
My father's still shaking his head when he saw my results. :(
When is he gonna be smiling and, say a 'good'?
Is it when I got full marks...?
To me, it's kinda impossible because everyone make mistakes.
Alright, I'm like, switching myself into the 'down' mood.
OKAY, OKAY.
He said if i got A1, I would get $100, A2 would be $50. (Overall results.)
It's hard to say for now. D:

I did not went for Rosary this morning, was kinda late when I left the house.
The most disappointing thing is, I'M REALLY FURTHER AWAY FROM GOD.
AND, when I read through my papers, I realised that there's a lot of careless mistakes I made.
I read newspapers today, Morning & Night ones.
Earthquake, Cyclone disasters (what is that???).
People are dying and suffering out there.
WHILE WE ARE HERE IN SINGAPORE, STUDYING & WORKING.
I'm relieved that there are 2000 over Singaporeans who registered to head over there if urgent help is needed. :D

PEACE. PEACE. PEACE.

Empty slots, Sports Carnival.

2008-05-12T22:15:00.003+08:00

What you say.
What would you say.
Secondary 4s '07, 'please don't leave!', Hahaha.
Now, HOLY INNOCENTS' HIGH SCHOOL SPORTS Carnival's going down...
Because they graduated! :(
Look at that list, where's the Secondary 1s???
EMPTY!
What the, be more participative.
Don't shy leh, lol.
OR ARE YOU ALL JUST TOO LAZY TO JOIN HUH.
Exercise more, heh.
Live a healthy lifestyle!
(Am I helping the government to promote?) LOL.

Okay, I got back my Combined Physics.
Marks could not be confirmed, there are changes of marks here and there.
I got 44.5/75 actually but now, it's 46/75.
I hope there would be more addition of marks.
Heh, 4 more marks to A2!
Ahhh, there were careless mistakes committed sadly.
I even transferred wrong answer to the Optical Answer Sheet.

Damn House meeting, caused me to still have to wait to receive Geogprahy results.
(maybe tomorrow?) xD
I have not received any Mathematics results.
Mrs Chang said tomorrow but I may not receive because I have not completed the corrections?
*bore*
I have been looking forward to receive results as I believed, I study harder for this MYE.

I'm still busy with stuff.
I have to teach George Maths, since his exams are still on-going and it ends on Wednesday.
It's kinda driving me crazy because his attitude towards studies, suck and he is lazy!
And, there's the Drama Day Camp! :D
Gotta rush with the limited time left.
I really do hope all members cooperate.
I do love you, all. PLEASE.

I'm tired easily this few days.
Even if I sleep earlier, I would still feel tired tomorrow. :(
I'm still like, lacking of sleep hours.
It's harming my face & health!
HELP.

I'm like, further from God... even though I go for Rosary every morning... but still, I'm always late recently.

PEACE.

Happy Mother's Day!

2008-05-11T21:10:00.003+08:00

Mothers are the ones who gave birth to you, all.
Be grateful. (:

So, how was Mother's Day for you, people?
Okay, I slept longer that night but I still woke up later.
I am supposed to wake up earlier so my father wouldn't be so tired!
But, oh well, things turnout quite fine.
Mother's Day this year, was?
I have no idea how different it is.
Heh, but this year I wanted to treat my mother dinner.
My father returned the money to me, in the end.
Haha, he didn't went dinner with us as he would be eating vegetarian this month.
Four of us waited for the dish, like 1 hour?
There were a lot of people dining there, (for a coffee shop).
Okay, the dishes tasted good, yummy!
The waiting time was worth even though my mouth was extremely itch while waiting.

School's tomorrow!
I really do not feel like going.
Haha, can I have a sweet & long sleep?

PEACE. PEACE. PEACE. :]

Miss, love.

2008-05-09T21:33:00.003+08:00

I miss Theatre.
I miss myself.

Today was Chinese Oral.
I have the information but it has gone to waste.
I was too nervous & I forgot the Chinese words for it.
Seriously, if you are the kind who read newspaper daily, I can guarantee that you would do well for it.
There are a lot of things you can say about, because they asked about 'Tourism attraction in Singapore'.
Even though I feel that Singapore do not really have any places of interest, it is quite okay already since we do have mountains & so on.

I wanna join the Anlene Orchard Mile!
PEACE.PEACE.PEACE. (:

Hello, I miss exams.

2008-05-08T17:01:00.004+08:00

Look at the title.
Okay, is anyone going to kill me?
Seriously, I was ultimately happy when it's over.
But, when I reached home, I felt something lacking.
So, what is it?
Bet it's the pressure exerted on me, for good results.
The so called last minute revision when i planned to study a week before but basically there's no time to complete everything or I was just too distracted by other matters.
I burnt many midnight candles but it did not help everything because of the lack of sleep for the next day.
I would rather have exams than doing to school to have lessons for so long! :x

I look upon the day when receiving the results.
I hope to see the improvement & I think I should have.
I would be very upset if I didn't because I really studied this year.
If I were to be given a time machine, I would go back to Secondary 2.
A lot of things happened on that day, I would restart everything.
But that would not happen at all.
I guessed I must move on with life & live it well.
Hence, I would not regret too much.
And I should not regret at all because all this already happen.

I have nothing to do.
I really need to get out of this house.
I want to enjoy the scenery.
I want to shop.
I need to find work to do.

Enjoy Post Examination, PEOPLE!
Damn, I think my mood's changing. :(
Am I really going to enjoy this post examinations / holidays?

LOVE. LOVE. LOVE.
PEACE. PEACE. PEACE.

2008-05-07T18:43:00.002+08:00

It has been 3 or 4 years since I contact my old neighbour @ Lorong Yew Lian.
Time really flies.
Both of them are like my parents.
They took care of me & I was showered with family love.
My parents have been out working since I'm at a certain age.
There's one time I will never forget.
I woke up & saw my brother crying.
Okay, because my maid was missing in the house.
I basically did not know what to do.
I was young so I just started crying.
Since her house was just opposite mine, she asked what happened & help us with finding our maid.
Heh, so that woman was downstair chatting using public phone. -.-!!!
I still remember the times when we applied nail polish, and so on.
It's been so long...
But I'm glad to know that she & Uncle Gust goes to Nativity Church! :D

English Paper 2 was completed happily.
Pure Geography, I chose the 1st question about Plate Movement & 3rd question about Coast. Seriously, I done the Coast questions like crap.
But whatever, exams are over!
No burning of midnight oil. :D

2008-05-06T17:41:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, A Mathematics was kinda okay...
But my Social Studies was like screwed up!
Ahhh! :(

Today, E Mathematics Paper 2 was... hmmm, not bad.
It just that I don't understand some questions.
Combined Physics seems fine for Section B but Section A & C was like, I spent kinda a lot of time understanding & trying to think of formulas to solve the questions.
All the papers seem like crap.
I feel that I'm not even sure what I'm doing.
Alright, Tomorrow's English Language Paper 2 & Pure Geography!
Gonna mug later on.

Well, I went Mediacorp!
It's like kinda "yay", because I saw Christopher Lee.
He was wearing shades & a cap.
Heh, didn't know he's tanned.
He seems lighter during Drama Series.
After that, went Pastamania for lunch again.
2nd time eating lunch today.
I'm sure going to gain weight. D:
The food doesn't taste good at all.
I don't know why, & the service was very poor.
I don't think I'm going there anymore.
The coffee was served without any stirrer nor sugar, it tasted so bitter!
Of course I went to request for those in the end, lol.
Another one was at the counter, she was like... "oh? he didn't give you?"
-.-

I slept at 0130 this morning.
Having headache again, because of lack of sleep?
Ahh!
Feel so sleepy now...
o.o
I think I'm gonna be like, living a unhealthy life now.
Lack of sleep, lack of exercise & eat so much.

Hope I'm gonna be back, living better soon.
Exams are all gonna be over!

*Cedele!
*Sentosa!
*Hillsongs!
*Shopping!
*Church! ♥

Things are gonna be fine soon. (:

Looking at the past?

2008-05-04T19:44:00.003+08:00

I was reading my auto biography that was written by my friends during primary six.
Looking at the past, like the others, I went through a lot.
What could I say.
Maybe there are others who have been through more than me.
It just seems like I didn't know I have no limit.
There are things you may not know that you can overcome it by yourself.
What could I say.
You would only realised it after some time.
Reflect...
Spend some time alone...

I hope tomorrow's Social Studies would be alright.
As well as A Mathematics, I'm really worried.

Happiest moment?

2008-05-02T17:54:00.003+08:00

My happiest moment can be when the sun rises or when the night stretches.
When I was young, I was afraid of the night.
I not dare to be alone all by myself.
I yearn for a world without nights.
As I grow up, I realised how the night could be so beautiful.
The Moon, be it a crescent or a full one.
The stars, be it dim or bright.
The night scenery, be it enjoying in a vehicle or on the benches.
What about the sun rise?
It symbolic a new day, a new starts for everyone.
Cherish it or not, the day is yours.
I have not had a chance to view the sun rise.
Nor viewing the night sky with someone.
Would you be the one?

E Mathematics & Combined Chemistry was fine.

EL Paper 1, Elective History.

2008-04-30T14:30:00.002+08:00

Man.
This is the first time I have sufficient time to complete English Paper 1.
I chose Q1 which is 'What are the ways for youths to cope stress from studies and bad influence from peer pressure?'
I started doing letter writing first. :x
Lalala~

History was rather not bad or bad?
I have no idea.
I should not have bothered to revise the League of Nations (LON).
Structured Essay Questions!
I chose Treaty of Versailles instead of LON.
Haha, I didnt even read the questions under LON. :x
Well, I'm not sure if I wrote out of point.
I followed Mrs Yap's tips so I did at least 3 SBQ questions then head to SEQ!

NOWNOW, HISTORY MYE OFFICIALLY ENDED.
YAY!
ELEMENTARY MATHEMATICS & COMBINED CHEMISTRY COMING UP NEXT!

Chinese Paper 1 & 2.

2008-04-29T13:25:00.003+08:00

What could I possibly say?
It's still the same.
I didnt have time to complete the paper as usual.
At least 10 marks were gone for Paper 2.
It's like, AGAIN!
BUT!
Yay!
Chinese Paper 1 & 2's over.
Opps, I forgot to write the question no. for the 2nd section of Paper 1.
Hope no marks would be deducted because of that.
No use regretting too.

So, tomorrow's English Paper 1 & Elective History.
I have limited time to absorb the required chapters for History.
League of Nations and others for SEQ.
I'm more interested in Adolf Hitler.
It's kinda more imaginative.
SBQ's based on Hitler!
I wonder how am I gonna write about LON.
It seems tough.
I guessed I've to believe in myself, relax and write faster.
And for English, I just have to read through my assignments and remember the format of the letter too.

After tomorrow's Labour Day!
hahaha.
Good news for me, I can chiong my E Mathematics & Combined Chemistry.
Chemistry rocks.
Woo!~

Oh, the air conditioned hall was very very very cold.
I didn't bring my jacket but oh well, still not sure if I should bring for the other days.
I didn't really feel sleepy too, because of the time.
hahaha, I'm like rushing...
while others get to enjoy the air-conditioner.

I need to buy Chicken Essence for Mathematics as well.
Just remembered.
I must stay alert!
No time to waste.
TATA, all the best for the upcoming examinations! :)

Keep trying!

2008-04-27T14:11:00.002+08:00

I was struggling with A Maths questions.
Stuck ed like mad.
I even feel like it's the end of the world.
Yeah, it sucks.
Everything seems so far at that point of time.
I thought I need more time.
Yeah, time is what I badly needed.
But, time is in my hands now.
I still have like, 2 or 3 days?
And after some of the subjects examination ended, I still could revise.
Yeah, there's still time.
I must make full use of it.
No time to like, slack it away.
Pessimist is what I am.
And it kills.
I'm just gotta work hard.
It's only like mid-years, then I'm already so... negative.
What about O levels?
I have to learn.
Learn is the only word to keep one persevering.
Learn to be independent, fast.
Learn to solve it myself, study hard.

It's only the start.
Get it starting.
Yay!
Burn till 4+am, worth it. everyone can do it.
Yeah, man.

:o

2008-04-23T16:25:00.003+08:00

MYE Elective History has 4 SBQ (25 marks), 2 SEQ(25 marks) = 50 marks.
I had Elective History Mock Exam on SBQ.
Mrs Yap told us to just complete at least 3 questions because of the time given.
BUT today, I couldn't even complete those questions on time!
I've already failed the 1st half of the paper. :(

Received more of the Chinese results, today.
Chinese composition- 36/50
Chinese News Report Essay- 36/50
Chinese Letter Writing- 14/20
Chinese Listening Comprehension- 18/20

My composition & the essay's like full of errors.
Marks deducted.
I didn't expect that I have got so many Chinese mistakes.
WAKE ME UP!
What's happening to me...?
I thought of picking up a Chinese book from Library to read.
But, by looking at the book shelves, it scares me out & decided to just borrow English books.
Well, one of the reason why my marks were being deducted was because the amount of words was not up to the school's expectation.

WHY DOES THE AMOUNT OF WORDS MATTER?!

GOTTA IMPROVE THE RATE OF MY WRITING, EVEN BOUGHT A NEW PEN TO TRY IF I COULD WRITE FASTER, AS WELL AS NEAT.

There was no RE, again.
I guessed they want us to be prepared for exams, that's why they made everyone go LCE to learn to be prepared for it.
We were told to write out the subjects we think we are good at.
I hesitated, not knowing what to write.

A Maths? No.
Chinese? No.
Combined Chemistry? I'm no sure.
Combined Physics? Not really sure.
Combined History? I need more time...
Social Studies? Same case as my elective.

I'm not really good at any, I forced myself to write a few subjects there.
Inside me, 'Look, what are you good at? This, no. That, is also no.'
I need trust myself & need confidence.

God, help.

:D

2008-04-22T16:41:00.004+08:00

A small little treat for me.
Mac's Iced Latte.
(to kinda keep me awake)
I'm officially starting my revision.
Let's see, Chemistry & A Maths or Physics for the day.
There wasn't Chemistry Mock Exam today, instead we brought the paper to be completed at home.
Tomorrow, there's going to be A Maths Mock Examination.
I have to take it seriously, I do not want to get nervous on the exam day, itself.

And I finally bought my Combined Physics Textbook, just yesterday.
$24.60!
Physics actually kinda easy if you memorise the formula, apply the formula & ta-da, ANSWER!
One thing that I keep forgetting is that, I cannot present the answer in fraction form.
My marks got deducted because of those silly mistakes.
I got back my A Maths Common test 2, badly done.
Before receiving the paper, I said that I would be happy if I got more than 10 marks.
But seeing my results, 13/40, I'm not happy.
It's 32.5%.
Now, I just hope that my CA1 would balance out.
And that, I would do well for SA1.
(must work hard for that!)
The results I received for Chinese last week, 42/70.
I haven't got any decent results for Chinese papers since the start of this year.
Where did my marks went?
It's always much better, last year.
Yeap, I said last year.
Oh, what happened to my Chinese?!
I'm weak in E Maths, Chapter 5.1, 5.2 & 5.3.
I just realised that it would be tested in MYE!
Uhuh, my fault for not paying attention during those lessons.
My rants of results.
What's the use of that?
I must get started for improvement!
Tata. ♥

God, I hope she could overcome the obstacles she's facing & that you would guide her along the way.
I know she can do it as You're with her.

):

2008-04-20T11:28:00.004+08:00

See...!
I'm still online.
Ahhh.

Dang.
Yesterday I'm so troubled.
Sleeping doesn't help.
Online doesn't help either.
Why should I still worry about stuff that might or might not happen...?!?!?
I am dumb.
Even thought of things I know it's wrong.
Luckily I didn't did it.
God gave me this body, I shouldn't hurt it.
I'm always having friendship problems. ):

I still couldn't absorb stuff that I've revised.
Oh oh oh.
What's problem with me?!
I really wanna do well this MYE.
I wanna make my parents proud.
I wanna show them that their daughter's capable.
That she can manage both studies & events.

I'm feeling rejected.
A sense of losing the direction I wanna head.
Hanging on...
I'm not gonna fall.
I just have to hang on..

I wanna get over this MYE & enjoy.
Do it well & no worries.
But how should I start.
Hesitation..
I have to trust myself to get this started!

God, You're all that I have.

Packed day.

2008-04-18T19:53:00.003+08:00

Couldn't believe time just passes so fast.
Secondary 3s are gonna take over English Drama Club after MYE.
It seems like I'm just a Secondary 1 student a couple of days ago.
Seniors really improved over this one year.
We sure are going to miss them a lot.
Those times we shared, and everything.

Results are pressurising me.
I feel that I could do even better for Elective History.
I couldn't find reasons why my grades for Chinese is dropping.
I need more As to do well for O levels.
Which subjects can exactly help me?
High expectations from adults sometime helps but it may also caused things to turn out otherwise.
Hope that I could really take one step at a time to complete my current tasks.
STRIVE! WOO~!

It's been a long time since I sat for examinations.
I must be calm & have confidence within myself. :D
REVISE. MEMORISE. PRACTICE.
DO A CHECKLIST!
AND TRAIN MYSELF TO WRITE FASTER!
oh ya, Amelia pointed out the one of the reasons I've done badly for Chinese was because of my writing speed. ):

ENGLISH.
CHINESE.
E MATHS. There's 2 papers. !!!
A MATHS.
COMBINED CHEMISTRY.
COMBINED PHYSICS.
ELECTIVE HISTORY.
SOCIAL STUDIES.
PURE GEOGRAPHY.

Be Hunger for Knowledge!
I'm going to fast from online.
Other than opening important mails.
Work hard for exams, friends out there!
And set your GOALS. ;D

Ahh, time.

2008-04-16T21:36:00.004+08:00

I got 31.5/35 for Chemistry test on Atomic Structure & Ionic Bonding.
It's kinda high but I have got careless mistakes.
I was over confident for that paper on that day & was rushing to complete my Chinese formal letter writing too.
Yeah!
It surely is going to pull up my marks for Physics.
I have to get my Physics Textbook soon & do self-study.

MYE's coming!
I have not yet receive the Schedule.
I need it to plan my revision...
There are still a few A & E Maths concept I'm still unsure of.
Mrs Chang, come back quickly!
Ahh.
Time really flies.
1 week + to MYE.
Now I'm wondering if there's enough time for revision...
( first time ) :D

I hope my promise wouldn't be broken.
Gonna work hard for it.

Nothing much.

2008-04-15T20:53:00.002+08:00

It didn't turn out to be that fun.
Freesia got to rush home so I didn't really spend a lot of time there.
BUT!
I saw Fann Wong & Pierre Png there!!!
They were doing a scene at the coast.
Dorothy & I wanted to say hi because he's an ex student after all.
Uh well, didn't get the chance.
Hahaha.
I don't mind even acting an Extra as long as I get to experience it. :x
Acting in a show has always been in my dream.

Yeah.
Mrs Yap didn't came to school.
There was this relieve teacher.
She's friendly!
She was from this school & was one of the EXCO 05', Secretary.
She's my senior as she was also from Drama Club!
Then realised that she participated in other CCAs too.
Such as Choir & one more sports CCA.
I didn't know that Catholic JC's standard is increasing.
Bet I'm gonna have a hard time entering JC already.

I'm so going to go back Sentosa again during the June Holidays.
Wanna try out the Skyride and other stuff.
Maybe one day ask friends out to play near the beach, cycle and more.
Before going Sentosa today.
I haven't been going there for years.
I barely remember anything from there.
Only Merlion & some kind of fountain?

Sometimes, school just seems like after EOY when people tend to slack and chat with friends.
Teachers don't really turn up as regularly as me.
Hahaha.
I find that it's the fact.
It may be good thing like, I can rest?
The bad thing is, some teachers might not be on time to complete teaching us the syllabus.
):

2 weeks away from MYE!!!

Just a normal day.

2008-04-14T21:02:00.003+08:00

I thought I didn't have any homework for today.
Went to continue reading my book.
Completed it.
Find that the book was not suitable at all for the Book Review.
Felt like doing A Maths TYS.
Realised the exercise book wasn't with me.
Thought I lost it.
Went to ask my friends.
Knew Mrs Chang returned to Soon Cheong but left it on Teacher's table.
I must remember to take it back tomorrow.

Damn.
Now I realised I still have this Geography project to complete by this Friday.
I wonder when I would have the time to go somewhere like East Coast Park to look at the waves and all.
But come to think of it, it seems like we are gonna have fun. ;D
i'm satisfied with my Geography results on the Plates,Volcanoes and others.
I finally passed!
Though it's only the 2nd test, I'm happy to use the word, 'finally'!
I didn't really studied because the moment when I read a page of it, my eyes started to close...
The next day, actual test date, I forgot to bring the notes and textbook!
That day, I really started off the 1st day of week badly.
I forgot to bring my Ez-link card and all.
Remembered that I sheded some tears during the morning... ):
I felt it was too much for me.
BUT
It's over! (:

Mrs Chang's having course and I can't ask her any Maths questions.
I'm having problems with E Maths Chapter 5 & A Maths Chapter 4.5 & 4.6.
OHHH, IT'S KILLING ME.
LALALA.
I wanna do my Maths work but couldn't do it.
OF COURSE IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY.
Even though today's E Maths Common Test was okay, I wonder if I would still survive next time.

I'm slacking.
Online.
Blog hopping.
Chatting.
I want to walk.
I want to look at the scenery.
The beautiful scenery either the nature or the modern buildings formed.
It just depends on if you appreciate it & how you looked at it.

I was reading Abigail's livejournal.
Certainly, I agreed that art is what makes the world goes around.
It's a much more better phrase then 'Money is what makes the world goes around.'
To me, that sentence sucks a lot.
Maybe because money isn't everything.
Okay, what's life without love?

PLANETSHAKERS + TIM HUGHES!

2008-04-12T13:40:00.004+08:00

I did my A Maths Common Test badly on Thursday.

Maybe it's good that it isn't Mid Year Examinations.

2 weeks more, if I still ain't revising, I'm so going to be dead.

I'm not going to give up A Maths because it simply just rock.

After that, it would be June Holidays.

Homework is waiting for me already.

hahaha.

But in any case, I'm gonna have fun.

Chemistry Test was cool.

I done it like feeling the breeze of nature.

I revised, okayyy?

hahaha.

School ended like 2+.

Skipped Drama & hurried to Hougang Mall with Dorothy to get stuff.

I had to rush home so she went alone to the Library, sorry about that.

Reached home around 3+.

I showered for 15min, 'miracle'.

hahaha.

Went Hougang Mall with my brother & reached there around 4+.

I didn't see anyone at first so went outside again & saw Ray.

Within minutes, Ee Chun arrived w Czia Jyeah.

Then Ryan, Jun Xian.

Malcolm was just from the escalator when we walked near the MRT station.

Bus 72 arrived when we were still a distance away, so ran...

Reached Tampines around 4 or 5+.

Czia Jyeah went off for his poly stuff, i guessed.

I didn't have any appetite even though I hadn't had any lunch so only had a drink while the others were eating. lalala~

Reached Expo but followed Ryan to his cousin's house, he went to pass something, i guessed.

Walked back & there was a long queue of people waiting because they ain't tickets holder.
We entered & kinda a lot of people there already but at least we got seats in the middle and kinda near the stage.

It actually starts at 0730 but not everyone was settled down so it extended to 8pm.

It was great.

The songs were Woo, WOW.

I'm gonna ask Ee Chun the title of the songs.

Heard from others that this year's better than last year a far lot.

I didn't regret going even though I missed the last session of Drama before MYE.

We waited outside for Cheng Long but not sure why he was so long and the security guard told us to wait outside Max as they were closing soon so we went to take a bite.

I saw a graduate with Cheng Long, he was Red Kites' vice captain when I was only a Secondary 1 kid.

Oh, and Ray can really act.

Many of us were fooled by him.

This is the first time I 'played' while boarding MRT.

He said Tampines was towards Boon Lay, everyone, except Ee Chun, ran towards there.

A group of girls were confused because we were like, 'wrong liao' and they ended up in the MRT towards Boon Lay.

hahaha.

Heard that they gave a 'HUH' face when the MRT was like 'Door Closing'.

We were like running here, and there.

We alighted at Tampines MRT Station whereas Ee Chun went with Cheng Long to Pasir Ris.

Boarded the last bus, we were lucky.

Group Photo. PLANETSHAKERS + TIM HUGHES ROCK-ed @ Max Pavilion yesterday & the day before!

It's so different.

2008-04-09T17:31:00.002+08:00

Every thing's different.
People do quarrel because we have different point of view.
There's nothing perfect.
We do not know what's 100% right or 100% wrong.
We often argue, because in our mind, we think that we are right.
Therefore, finds that the other party is wrong.
Do not think that way.
Open yourself to view in another perspective.
You might not know what you will learn.
Maybe you would learn how this world works, or rather how human beings works? ;D

Kelvin's in NCC training and George's studying in school.
Here I am, the only one who could online BUT it must not be told to both of them.
So, I got to go.
It's 6!
I do not think that I'm coping with E Maths well.
I do not understand the questions from A Maths too.
So am going to ask Mrs Chang!

Hahah.
I have got some ideas for SWAP project.
Thanks to some people around me!
Then my brain started to produce brain juices.
Well, speaking of SWAP project...
3 Diligence SWAP!
Credits to: Amelia.
It's just the start, guys!

Hmmm.
What should i wear on Friday?
Hope nothing goes wrong.
I know it won't because...
I prayed! ;D

It's so wrong.

2008-04-06T17:29:00.002+08:00

I'm kinda sick, with mild running nose and sore throat.
Yesterday I went All Saints' Home to do voluntary work.
Ahhh..
Now my father asked why I'm down with flu, was it because I went there.
It meant to show that I can't take care of myself.
I don't want it to be that way.
It simply means that I'm not independent and can't have things my way.

I feel so confused right now.
What's with life?
I don't know. I don't know.

I need someone.

Art, Life?

2008-04-04T20:25:00.004+08:00

I was late for Drama practice, again.

It always happens.

But this time, I was late because I didn't want to break my promise. :)

I must not be late for the next session!

Must do it.

Before I came, Mr Beng talked about the trip he went, i guessed.

Told us about 'Unlearn, Relearn'.

Isn't it viewing matters from different points of view?

Next, was a simple exercise. ( That's what he said )

1st, he instructed us to take out a piece of paper, we were given 30 seconds.

Many took a pen along with it but that wasn't the instruction he gave.

Why did they take out a pen, too?

Some gave answers such as it's a habit, pen goes with paper, etc.

haha

Pen doesn't go with paper.

It neither walk nor move.

He observed that some of the people were still chatting at some corners even though we were given 30 seconds to be back, sitting down.

Not listening to instructions again.

Theatre requires discipline, why can't people can't even follow simple instructions?

We were told to leave our piece of paper on the ground, treating it as a stage, quietly and gathered around it in a circle.

And took back our paper, went back to the circle quietly.

We didn't realised that we were creating sounds using that object we were holding.

( Imaging when we were at the backstage. )

We went to try it again.

Placed our paper on any part of the 'stage', returned back to the circle.

But this time, we take any piece of paper quietly.

Later on, we formed 2 lines of papers and line up in 3s, 1 roll beside each line of papers.

We turn one direction to face someone and just go to the extreme edge then returned to the center.

One was supposed to collect all the papers.

Divya volunteered.

While collecting, there were people who helped.

Those were to be pulled out and Diyva had to use the papers to 'execute' them.

This shows that there are people who would be punished even if they did the right thing.

Doing the right thing doesn't mean they would never be given punishment.

Life?

She threw the paper towards our direction and we were told to try to take as many as possible.

Those without any papers have to walk up.

Emily the had most number of papers.

So, those without any, had to act like why Emily shouldn't take so many.

After that, we gathered in a circle again.

Diyva gave out papers without manners ( It's not on purpose. )

I took the 1st piece even though I find that I shouldn't take it because it weren't given to me, sincerely.

I hesitated taking the 2nd piece, just something stopped me a while to think before taking it.

However, I took it in the end because... I just take it.

haha

So, I was pulled to the center of the circle.

The others were allowed to use the paper in any way or whatever on me.

Most of them crushed it & threw it at me.

Pei Ling tore into smaller pieces of paper & threw harshly to me.

1 piece even entered my blouse, haha.

And of course, I felt kinda humiliated ( Not to the extend that I felt very angry, because this was just an exercise, I'm glad to experience it ).

Only 2 were being good towards me.

Daniel gave small pieces of paper to me, neatly, being polite and gentle. ( I sorta pushed it away. Maybe what Mr Beng said is right. I doubt their kindness after what I have experienced ).

Dawn folded a piece of heart shaped one to me, I didn't take it immediately because I was kinda touched.

I think I didn't take it politely too.

Yeah, the others formed into groups of 5.

I was still standing.

There was a girl who was left out.

She was told to try entering one of the group.

But no groups were willing to accept her.

They mocked ( instructed ) at her, keep on laughing and all.

It got nosier and she shouted 'Shut Up!'.

Then they quarrelled with her because, who was she to have the rights to keep their mouth shut.

Both of the parties had fault because the groups didn't want to accept her & she didn't manage to enter any of the group.

This whole exercise didn't show any hero who tried to 'save' people.

Members from every group didn't really bother about people 'outside' of the group who was in need.

Isn't this the art of life?

Some people entered a group silently, waiting for acceptance?

Doing the right thing yet sometimes, punishment was given?

People doubting kindness after some experiences?

And MANY MANY MORE.

Through this, I've learnt a lot.

Wanna head towards it.

My father said it's useless for me to study one Psychology and told me to manage mine... first.

I feel kinda upset about it.

Before that, he said, depends on my interest!

I can chose whatever jobs I want.

I can't believe that he actually told me to manage my Psycho whatever first.

WHAT.

2008-04-03T18:23:00.005+08:00

I don't think I did understand E Mathematics lesson today.

There's gonna be 5 tests next week.

Geography ( Monday )
Social Studies ( Monday )
Elementary Maths ( Wednesday )
Additional Maths ( Thursday )
Chemistry ( Friday )

Yay! & I completed both Physics and Chinese tests today.
Didn't have much time to complete the Chinese test properly because I was very tired.
I feel that my brain's gonna shut down, like that.
I only realised that there's Chinese Test, just today.
Physics test was kinda of easy but I don't think I did it well for last few questions.
Those questions were from the Workbook!
I should have read the answers properly and see it should be written.

Gotta finish up my Social Studies project, Revise Chemistry, Complete A Maths Exercises, English Worksheet and Chinese Journal!
I would be very satisfied if I completed 1st few tasks.

I'm getting tired.
Someone, help me!
I want to relax, I want to have fun, I want to be free!

There's Mass tomorrow.
Hope it's gonna sort of 'heals' me.
I don't wanna give up.

A sentence made me do some reflection.
Happiness is cherishing every moment of your life.
Who doesn't agree?
I think by cherishing every moment of our life, we would feel a satisfaction about how we lived our life, without regrets and appreciating everything we have.
Cherishing, making life meaningful, treasuring it.

PTM.

2008-03-29T12:30:00.002+08:00

My father seems very interested about my English progress.
Then Ms Chin started saying about how poor my English is.
And asked who I use that language to interact with.
Said:
I should speak English more often, know my mistakes & try to correct it.
While reading a book, must see how the writer wrote it and check dictionary if I don't know the words or don't understand the sentence.
She find that Junior College & Polytechnic doesn't have any difference.
Asked me about a matter too.
Why should she tell my father... even though my father knows about it but I still feel uneasy.
British Council, maybe that's the only hope for my English.

I went to the Seconday 2 Briefing as well.
Compared to our batch, they have Pure History!
hahaha.
I guessed that's a bad news for those who doesn't like History.
And the hall had a small buffet.
It wasn't like last year.
The hall was kinda noisy even when Ms Soh was making a speech.
I realised how good Mrs Wong can speak, only now.
Last year, everyone was quiet, seriously listened to the talk.
Even my father agreed that last year's better.

I'm going to complete 2 subjects' homework today. :]

Dan & Young, you rock. ;D

2008-03-27T17:40:00.002+08:00

Additional Maths Logarithms Short Test 4...
Last question was screwed.
But overall, I have confidence to pass it.
I must improve after known mistakes made.
I'm going to do it!

:)

I prefer the 1st band who performed, they seems they could be more sociable with our age group and I feel that I wanna join in to WOO~! they rock rock rock.
hahaha
Didn't know Singapore has so many talented bands, thought every one's just working, thinking about work even if they wanna have fun.
There were even results of stress surveys indicated that Singapore is on the top's list.
No doubts why some people wanna migrate.
Try not to.

PTM's tomorrow, wonder what Ms Agnes Chin would talk about.
My English Language?
or whatsoever.

I'm gonna look forward but not the back.
There isn't use looking back, what's the good point in it anyway.
Look forward, reach your goals and be satisfied.
Thank you, friends!
Over means over. ;)

Which subject should I go tuition for?
English. Elementary Maths. Pure Geography.
Suggestions anyone?

Adolf Hitler.

2008-03-26T21:10:00.002+08:00

History rocks!
hahaha
Adolf Hitler.
It's interesting, I tell you.
Communism, how in the world he could control the citizen's emotion and more.
I wonder why he would think of taking over that country...
I'm glad to have Mrs Yap as my teacher.
She teaches me both Social Studies and History.
Those are two of the lessons I always look forward to.
Hooray to Combined Humanities!
and Additional Mathematics, with Mrs Chang.
I do not know the reason why I don't really fancy Elementary Maths.
hahaha
Especially, the Congruency & Similarity.
sian.

yay!
Tomorrow, 98.7FM DJs' & 2 local professional bands gonna come during Secondary 2 LCE lesson, in the hall.
I'm so heading to see them.
Both bands are gonna perform.
woo~
Think it's gonna be fun, fun, fun.

Test, test and tests...
Mathematics, I'm so not gonna let you drive me crazy.
hahaha

God bless, everyone. ;)

It's just the Beginning.

2008-03-25T20:33:00.002+08:00

It's the start of something new.
hahaha.
I'm planning to reach my goal- that is, to be a hardworking student. \/
and to know about the 'beginning' of this world.
I put inverted commas because there isn't a beginning and ending in the first place.

So far, I know that God loves us.
It doesn't mean He don't love us when some people have to enter Hell FOREVER because of their sins and some other stuff- gotta find out more.
That's where Justice came about, He have to judge us because He's the God.
He's our Creator.
He love us but that doesn't mean sinners can be freed without punishment after causing indirect harm to themselves or to others.
No matter how hard we try, we could never be like Him.

Can I don't be in any religion?
I just wanna have Faith in Him & Trust Him, is it enough?
Could I just rely on the Bible?
Guessed He's gonna plan something.
I hope I could just follow the lead.

School's fine for me.
I think I need more sleep & minty sweets to keep me awake.
Short tests are still on going once or more a week.
This should be good so that I wouldn't die during the Mid Year Exams.
hahaha
And there are still projects that I have to rush.
That's boring.

I don't know the old me.
Don't make me remember.
Why would you wanna dig out the past?
Everyone has a past.
Some changed for the better or worst.
I personally feel that I changed for the better.
Why must you !@#$% at this point of time?
When you're the one who's obviously changing.

Fine, you wanna talk about past.
Why do you find fault in me that I said about others who had their skirt altered to a very short length when I altered mine? , you wrote in your blog when we quarrelled, when you said I didn't trust you.
What now.
You didn't trust me & folded your skirt as well.

I don't even know when in the world I even ignored you.
Oh please, are you sure you are not treating me as a foe?
There's a problem with your attitude.
You ain't great.
You ain't the best.
People can continue with what they are doing without you too.

I know I'm being mean here, just wanna type here so I could know how I feel next time. ;)

Easter.

2008-03-23T08:59:00.003+08:00

Happy Easter Day, everyone!
& God blesses. :)
The day when Jesus rose.
I'm gonna eat up Easter Bunny later...
Hahaha.

My maid's on leave today.
I tried making breakfast for George as he wanna eat the ham my grandfather bought yesterday then I realised it's been a while since I really 'entered' the kitchen.
I fried scrambled eggs + that = our breakfast. :x
The ham turn out to be really salty & I still don't understand why he said that it's delicious.
Ray! Why?

What trust have gotta do with gratefulness.
That is what you feel.
But you don't know how I feel.
You don't know if I'm grateful, if I really care.
The problem lies with the word, Trust.

The blog is not all the trusted ones in, I didn't put everyone whom I trust here. Only those who asked & I recently deleted a few because I'm gonna reopen it once I decided on my new url.

URL

2008-03-22T15:11:00.002+08:00

Considering a new link, but haven't think of one yet.
If it's confirmed then the blog would be opened to all.
Hahahahaha.

Could you answer?

2008-03-20T17:01:00.003+08:00

Could you answer what a True Friend is?
I wonder how her reply would be like.
Harsh?
People says that true friends doesn't mind each other faults nor weak points.
They accept it.
They let bygones be bygones.
One point I've missed out is that you have not been trusting me all along yet you are always saying that I doesn't trust you, that's why we always quarrel.
Pushing the blame to me and now, saying that you're always the one who said sorry to me on the phone, even though I'm the one with fault?!
Does this mean that you feel that you're the good one, here?
I could not believe that now it seems that I do not know you at all.
Me, DRAMATIC?
What about you?
Please, don't put the focus on me and forget all about yourself.
It's so obvious that you could not be trusted already.
Secrets, how can you reveal it when it's so confidential?
Mistakes, how would you feel if someone went on telling others that you did a particular mistake and made it sounds so big when you feel bad enough.

People told me,
Not to care about you because you just ain't worth of the treatment.
You're the arrogant type, who thinks highly of yourself and find that you have higher authority than the others when you don't.
You're getting more vain, extremely sensitive to your looks.
When you're acting like a spoilt kid, you sounds disgusting.
You're unreasonable.
Your mentality's still at Primary School level.
All this, I only realised it now.
It sounds so pathetic.

I'm letting it go and I'm glad that I'm putting it down.
What could I do when all along you have hatred for me, buried in your heart?
And ain't true to me nor yourself.
And bearing grudges, all this years.
I do not even know what you're thinking, right now.
You're advertising me, as a BADDIE.

If I were to even bear grudges, I would have done my revenge long ago.
I still remember the post that you wrote about me when there was a quarrel between us.
It's just... when I saw it, I was shocked.
Never knew you would write it such a way.
As time flies, the life maybe you decided is this.
I can't do anything about it, since you care about your looks so much.
And you seem like you're planning a plastic surgery with the others for someone.
Everyone isn't perfect, alright?
Even you, yourself.
There's no use comparing others' looks.
Maybe all of you just wanna pick a topic for conversation but why is that topic discussed so many times which isn't healthy at all.

It's time to let go & move on with life fore I know that God would be mending a path for me. Thank You, Lord.

100th post.

2008-03-18T18:53:00.003+08:00

Hahaha.. Finally, it's the 100th post.

Well, it's unbelievable -to me.
It's nothing special too, just that it's the 100th post of my 'life'?

The Heart Of Worship
When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart
pre-chorus:
I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what you have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart
chorus:
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath

Things happened are often what we may or may not expected.
God let some things to happen for a reason.
And God's there for us, always.
He's always there, He did answer our calls.
In one way or another.
You just have to trust him. :)

I think I have been repeating some stuff about God, I'm afraid that I would lose the faith.
TRUST. TRUST. TRUST.
It's obstacles I must overcome, He's guiding me, slow & steady.

Is my father gonna allow me to the Church Visiting & PlanetShakers?
Please oh please. :x

This song just makes my day.

2008-03-17T20:33:00.002+08:00

If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I'd kick the bad boys back to school
Teach them fighting's just not cool
I'd give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
Sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorise
Into pink poodles that bark but don't bite

Today wasn't bad at all.
A number of classmates went Twinning Program.
And had 4 periods of A Maths lessons in total.

I must patch with Mathematics.
I'm gonna fall in love with him again.
I just like to work his answers out.
I must get it correct without being careless.
Working him out is the best homework I could ever get.
I hope this works.

Been repeating this song, 'Little Superhero Girl'.
I want Corrinne May's album!

Doing the A Maths Project, I guessed I'm going to complete it by today.
This coming Friday's Good Friday.
Any invitations?

Uh... I want comments!
Please. :)

School reopens tomorrow.

2008-03-16T21:29:00.002+08:00

Hope everything would turn out fine.
I'm having the feeling of wishing not to go school.
It's just... I'm feeling kinda bad.
You know, I haven't been feeling happy.
I thought I'm fine already.
But I'm still pondering about it.

Yippee.

2008-03-13T19:55:00.002+08:00

Met Dorothy at MacDonald's at 8+am.
And there comes our breakfast.
Yummy.
I ate my breakfast with chilli again.
We were chatting , and so I ate the slowest, almost all the time.

Reached school at 0922.
Hahaha.
I think I hardly did a question when Fidella reached.
Nothing much happened, just that I'm glad I've got help from people.
It shows that I didn't wear my Half Uniform & enter the school for nothing.
It was worth it!
Now, Maths assignment seems gonna be completed except for the A Maths 10 years series & the A Maths Project.
Ahhh.
The A Maths Project's frustrating, I've no idea where to get formulas!

I think I'm going to be spending late nights again to complete Holiday Assignments, by looking at my schedule.
Hahaha.
I hope I would gain something after torturing myself with panda eyes.
Such as, worry less when school reopens & would not have homeworks piling up?
I thought I could have the chances to get rid of them during this Holiday week, but I guessed it's IMPOSSIBLE.

My mouth's still itching to eat something even though I ain't hungry.
I need HELP.
I'm so... AM heavier now.
I don't wanna see my weight to be increased.
Who's gonna stop me.

Found that the sentences I like is on TheLeapYears website.
HOORAY.
Some could be found on my blog below too. :)

TheLeapYears

2008-03-12T10:39:00.002+08:00

Watched TheLeapYears last evening & it was great!
I like the songs, those sentences.
It kinda make senses.
Uh, i forgot those sentences!
But, it was by Albert Einstein and other famous people.
I don't mind watching it for the 2nd time. hahaha.

Spoke to someone on phone, last night too.
I certainly feel much more better and finally, I'm putting things down.
Yeap!
And that means... I won't feel so troubled anymore. hope so.
You know, God's there and I'll let him solve it for me. :)
I guessed, He let this thing happen because He's teaching me to put down my burden.
I just have to know: Who's in the right path, who's the one changing.
I still have other friends with me, those who really care about me.
How glad could I be.
He's so great that I don't even know how to thank him.
He's always sending someone for me.
Whenever I needed to remember He's there.

Before this, I was always thinking about how to face the future, why is she like that and all.
I was feeling troubled all the time.
Even when I was supposed to enjoy a movie, I couldn't.
Because my whole mind was pondering about that.
And then, I feel that I'm improving. :)
The feeling when I watched Fool's Gold & The Leap Years was totally different.
When watching Fool's Gold, I couldn't get rid of those thought, even for a few minutes.

The reason for limiting people into this blog is because, I don't wanna people to discuss about my posts. Maybe it's just for people whom I trust?

Building up my confidence.

Other than that.

2008-03-08T22:21:00.002+08:00

Other then..
-Complete homework.
-Complete Projects.
-Take up Cooking Course.
-Plan Service Learning Visits.
-Help Parents!

I also wanna..
-Shopping!
-Watch 'TheLeapYears'.
-Get a pair of Sliver Leggings!

xD

Uhh..
Maths' getting me crazy already.
I still have not decide which topic I wanna do for the Maths Project.

March Holiday, how could you claim that it's a holiday?!

2008-03-07T18:26:00.002+08:00

I don't wanna spend my 'Holiday' with home works.
How great would it be, man.
Mathematics homework... a ton of it.
There's still 2 projects to struggle this week!- English & Chinese.
Uh... and English, 2 units of Vocabulary & a few exercises of Comprehension.

Okay.
Let's see..
What I'm gonna do during March Holiday.
-Complete home works.
-Complete Projects.
-Take up Cooking Course.
-Plan Service Learning Visits.
-Help Parents! (:

No Regrets.

2008-03-01T20:34:00.002+08:00

Experience True Love & Success.
Most importantly, Spread the Word of The Lord.
Then, I will leave this world.

Could I make it? :)

29.02.2008

2008-02-29T21:38:00.003+08:00

Such a wonderful date today.
But didn't really feel good.
I hope better stuff would happen later on. :)

A special date.
Of course I wanna it to be memorable.

Maybe being close friends, rather than a couple is better.

Things should be better that way.

2008-02-27T22:05:00.002+08:00

Let us just rewind.
Thanks, I appreciate it.
Maybe we should have did that long ago.

Dance practice was great, even though some dancers wasn't feeling alright half way through.
Because we know more about how they feel?
That wasn't bad after all, at least we co-operate better.
And completed the dance moves!
Anyway, H.I.H.S is participating in the upcoming DanceWorks2008!
It would be held at The Cathay on 15th & 16th March.
H.I.H.S would be performing on 16th March.
Please do contact me if you're going there to support!
:D
It is seldom that you do see students from our school suggesting to represent the school to join a competition.
I hope you do come down & support us!
Support De' Juiced!
Hahahahaha.
Maybe we are gonna perform that dance on Teachers' Day too.

I'm trying to be persistent with my work for the past few days.
Completing my stuff and, all.
Challenging myself.
Set targets & wrote 'THINGS TO DO' each day, reaching & completing it.
Hope it helps & hope I'm unlimited!
Hahaha.
Just wondering if I would collapse one day, because of load of works & emotions.
Emotions been bothering me, I feel like bursting out.

It seems that there's at least a test every week.
Doesn't that sounds cool.
Hahaha.
LIKE REAL.
It can kill me when I just passed or scored a single digit out of a double digit.
I expect that I would pass my Pure Geography Test.
Never did I expect that I scored a DAMN single digit.

Physics Practical Test tomorrow,
History SBQ Test on Friday.
Homeworks crushing on me...!

Screwed Pure Geography.

2008-02-25T21:39:00.003+08:00

Memorable Test ever.
how the heck i got that kind of grade.

不知道。

2008-02-23T20:19:00.003+08:00

I don't know.
I don't know why I'm feeling so down out of a sudden.
Mood swings seriously suck big time.
Everything just doesn't seem fine to me.
I don't feel like touching my homework.
Seeing it just stresses me up.
Really feel like bursting out.
Why is this happening to me, more than twice this week?

I really need someone.

Why is there problems in every segment of my life?
I hate this.

Maths Homework's killing me!
DAMN.
I keep being stuck.
What kind of shit test do we have next week, man?
WTHWTHWTHWTHWTH.

Sometimes, I feel like killing myself.
People always assumed that they know me.
But in fact, they don't.
Why do you keep insisting that you know me.
Why?!
When I deny, you feel that I'm escaping from Reality.
What's in your mind.
I'm crying inside...
Are you the selfish one?

I wonder...
What kind of life am I living.
Why things goes the wrong way.
Why people around me treated me that way.

I don't think I'm over sensitive.
Maybe we are not that close already.
I feel that there's something wrong with us.
You would just deny it.
Deep inside you, are you disliking me?

NOTE: I'M REALLY IN A DOWN MOOD.
I don't wanna regret to write this post.

7 Days by 'Me, Myself'.

2008-02-22T21:24:00.003+08:00

'7 Days' by Me, Myself really rocks.
You might hear that song if you went to the V day performance in school.
Or you can hear it in Ray's blog.
It ROCKS.
I love... love... LOVE that song!
7 days, I've been waiting for you...

My parents didn't work today.
Feel kinda guilty because I didn't spend time with them.
It's like... they rarely decided to have an off day.
And I'm upset over having such a busy week & usually reached home around 6+.
I miss chatting with my father & going out with my parents.
True love is what I experience from them.

I'm having aches now, over the days already.
It seems that my muscles are stiff.
Having aches just like that?!?
Hahaha.
How I wish to have a great massage.
Dance practice isn't that bad after all.
After Drama, went with Amelia & Andi to practise the dance steps.
I find that I improved a lot from that practice.
Thanks Andi & Amelia!
If the coordination is good, the dance would be great.
Coordination is very important, I really hope that we would be able to reach a good level for that.
EMILY CAN DANCE. :)

Ohhh yeah.
Have been really busy this week.
Monday- E Maths Common Test + Dance Practice at the Harmony Park.
Tuesday- Physics Common Test + Pure Geography Common Test + Drama T-shirt discussion.
Wednesday- A Maths Common Test + Dance Practice in AVA Room 2.
Thursday- SLL workshop + Dance Practice at the Harmony Park.
Friday- Drama practice + Dance Practice in the H&F room & outside Biology Lab.
Somewhere around the week, we had 3 continuous day of CL Test which includes, CL Composition, Letter Writing & Listening.
Got back my CL Listening Test, didn't do well as the others.
But, I had unexpected results of both the CL letter writing & E Maths test.
I wasn't not happy, I think I got a shocked.
:x

You won't lose me, I promise.
I really hope that you're a changed one as I expect.

绝不流泪。

2008-02-20T22:06:00.002+08:00

I don't really know what exactly happened.
Or what you told him.
Seriously, I'm really fine with it.
SO AS LONG AS YOU REALLY LIKE HIM AND DO NOT HURT HIS FEELINGS. CAN ANY ONE GET THIS RIGHT. YES, I DO HOPE SO. :) why are you not replying me on msn?

Yeah, I need a tutor.
Hahaha.

Down.

2008-02-19T22:07:00.002+08:00

I screwed my Pure Geography test.
Physics Test, maybe.
Okay, both.
I don't even know what I wrote.
Feeling dead stress.
Both tests woud be easy if I weren't so nervous, inconfident and really prepared for it.

WHAT...
I hope my thoughts now are not real.
I hope you really didn't did that because of me.
I hope you do really like him in the 1st place.
Things should be just leave it this way.
And see how things go.